Hi, people!

I have my (little) own place. I have a computer and Internet and I'm really happy and satisfied living there. Sure, I miss my parents, my brother and friends. My mam is really upset and sometimes when I call home I can feel that she's in tears... That makes me sad, uncomfortable and everything like that. So, I come back every weekend. 150 km aren't too far, but it's really annoying when I'm travelling on the bus - there are too many people and not enough space to breath (I do love people, but not so close to me)... The train is much better!! And then, there is something... I've moved on but I still come back. And that troubles me a little, 'cause I left and at the same time I'm still here...

I think I told you everything important... Oh yeah, Monday it's my first day in college, I mean first-lessons-day

Take care!

Et tu me manques, chaque jour qui passe, je n'arrête pas de penser à toi. Et ça fait mal de te savoir loin. Mais ce qui fait le plus mal, c'est tout ce que j'imagine, des situations, qui ne seront jamais, ton visage que je ne verrais peut-être plus. Et mon cœur pleure, mais mes yeux sont secs. Mon âme crie, mais ma bouche reste silencieuse. Et personne ne voit ce qui se passe avec moi, et personne ne peut comprendre ce qu'il y a en moi. Et moi, je lutte avec la raison qui dit de t'oublier, et avec ce cœur qui t'aime encore, et qui ne t'oubliera jamais, parce que tu lui manque si fort. Et je suis déçue par ta faiblesse, par on inconstance. Je voudrais pouvoir revenir en arrière, ou alors accélérer le temps pour savoir si ça me passera ou alors je souffrirai à jamais… Tu étais la cause de mon existence, maintenant tu es la cause de mon absence au monde.

Hi from Aix-en-Provence!

I'm here since last week, but I had to store my stuff in the new place. The flat is not so big - 16m² but it's fine for me. I have a room, where I sleep, there is also a table to do my homework, then I have a little kitchen and a bathroom. It's pretty nice I enjoy being here, the center is not far away. I know some girls, who study here, too. Three of them were in my high school, one is my brother's friend's sister, and the next one is a colleague from work. I met her this summer.

Today, it was my first day in college. Pretty nice, too. I'll be studying English and Russian, as you know. We have to make a choice about options, I think I'll go with Spanish, 'cause I can't pick up Bulgarian :-( I have to decide until the next week.

Well, I think that's all for now. I'll be around, but I don't know if I'll have enough time to spend on the Internet.

So... Lots of love,

Dess