Friday, Dec 8, 2006
Man, this profile really need an update.
Maybe I'll change the avatar to my ugly face.
Starting the crying baby series:
Mom, where's my Alienware?
Christmas is coming and I didn't get the money yet. Maybe I'll try lottery later.
Maybe I'll change the avatar to my ugly face.
Starting the crying baby series:
Mom, where's my Alienware?
Christmas is coming and I didn't get the money yet. Maybe I'll try lottery later.
Tuesday, Apr 25, 2006
Hello nobody! (as I do not have any readers, hehe)
Long time no write here, I know. I'll try to do my best to repair this failure.
Things are the same here, no pieces of cake, no slices of meat for free. Sometimes I wish running away and giving up of my dreams.
And (as always) at the end of this dark tunnel I find a light to try improving my mood.
Today I was reading some interesting topics that made me think about new perspectives and work projects: start with investments.
To be cleaner and objective: invest money at the stock exchange.
It would be great if it work. I'd make some buxes and that mean new hardware to build my next monster-son-pc, Edie IV.
Edi3 is badly broken.
Monday is mobo
Tuesday is video
Wednesday is power supply
Thursday is audio
Friday is DVD drive
Saturday and Sunday --> No activities = hardware/soft vacation... (it's a shame that my edi3 is a lazy boy, he's always on vacation!)
(some humor is good --> it make me think three times before kicking bad hardware)
* * *
Changing the subject..
I started learning 3D Studio Max by myself a couple of months ago. It's hard learning everything without the help of a teacher, but it will worth when I get enough money to pay a course.
I'm still discovering what it will be need to turn myself into a "godlike skilled" woman in 3D design, animation and other stuff to have the job of my dreams on EA, Lucas Arts, Rockstar, etc a day.
(it would be great spend the rest of my life doing what I love) ^ ^Hope getting there on a not so far future.
The only thing that make me worry about is the experience required to have these jobs. I don't see any way to gain these experience points (years) here, as nobody give work to a beginner.
Everytime I catch myself thinking about seeking an extension course on USA, master degree, MBA (I don't really know what to do first) related with game design, programming.
The unique problem is paying my life there.
If you wanna know: I don't care!
I have hands, legs and a brain, I can make hamburgers, cakes, do the dishes, clean, be a babysitter, work with computers, network and even with arts (as I've passed 5 years of my life drawing and painting pictures).
Resuming: I can work hard, from sunday to sunday to pay my studies and be a great professional
(and didn't forget of my beer -> I deserve that, and you too) -->> I cannot understand how some ppl may live without alcohol sometimes.
* * *
Maybe it will sound strange, but when I'm drunk I use to play good on Unreal 99, hehe.
* * *
Well, that's all folks.
I've written too much already.
(and a lot of crap too)
See you on the next post!
Mary Vigna
Wednesday, Dec 7, 2005
I cannot believe it's over. Now, I just wanna @#$%¨&* and !@#$%$# and ¨&*(@#$ and etc.
Yes, I need to "reset". x_X
Man, It's hard to think the end has come.
Now I'm here, just working, stucked in an air conditioned room, with different kinds of computers, compiling linux and putting all things right.
For now on, I'll have to work for 2 (two) weeks until I unpplug the cables and wires of my brain.
Yes, a lot of sh**t to think and to do. I'm tired and I need leaving this nightmare asap I can. I cannot stand the same sh**t anymore. I cannot stand losing and being thrown to the end of the line every time.
When will I find a job that pay better?
When will I finish this hell (called university) and start doing what I want?!
I have a lot of questions without answers.
Why stupid ppl have greater jobs than me?!
What they do?! They su**k "it"?
What other sh**t they do to have that f**kking job?
I always tried by the honest way and always lost. All I could -and have nowadays- is being a computer trainee in my university. I work millions of hours and at the end of the month I have my payment: NONE. (yes, I do not see my payment, they are discounted on the
'university fee")
I like working here, but I cannot work just for fun anymore. I have to work to make money and if it's possible I'd like having fun too.
...
Man, hope the next year be better.
Hope everything change for a better everything. For a better life and better salary..
I have to help my parents, I have to pay my bills, I have to eat, to live, to think, to study, to clean, to drink, to smoke. What more?
I'm just writing bu*$%sh*it.
Yes, I am angry and mad.
Yes, I am tired and feeling a sweet pain on the neck.
Yes, I am nervous.
Yes, I do not have money for nothing.
Yes, I am concerned.
Yes, I have to fix this situation asap.
Yes, I wanna run away.
...
If anyone read this don't mind with my words.
They just mean something for me.
And the rest?
The rest? The rest are us.
Mary,
december 2005.
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