Hey everyone. How is it going? I am on my midterm studying break. On Wednesday I have my Human Geography midterm and on Friday I have both my Chemistry and Calculus midterm. I am not too stressed with Human Geography but Chemisty and Calculus. Oh my goodness, so freaked out. Today is my Chemistry study day. And tomorrow is my Calculus study day. It is Thanksgiving here. I am avoiding it. I do not eat any of the food involved in whole thing. And it is at my Aunt and Uncle's house and I am over being around them. My Uncle says some of the most inappropriate things because my family are a bunch of redneck hicks. That is something I am not. There have always been things that everyone says that bother me a lot. Lately for some reason I have been speaking out towards them. So I stopped putting myself in the situations where I was going to seem like a preachy person. But yeah. Midterms. So over it already. So stressed. I have been trying to study for my Chemisty one and I can not figure it out. So I am becoming very frustrated so I had to give myself a break. Plus I had to eat since I have been starving myself again lately, so I was starving and my energy was so low. So I ate. I tried studying at the library but I do not know, I just could not concentrate. I just want to hang out and I am fighting the urge. So much. After I write this blog, I think I might have a nap and then get back on the Chemistry bandwagon.

Uhh, I went home last weekend. It was kind of nice. I liked being there but I kind of missed it here as well. I spent most of the time with Kat. I ended up coming home on Thursday night after my night course And I did not tell anyone that I was going home. So the next day I surprised Kat at school during lunch. So we hung out in my car for like 45 minutes. It was the first time I had seen her in more than three weeks. That day I also went and visited work. And all my favorites were there. It was really nice to see everyone. And everyone missed me. I got hugs from everyone. I was allowed in the back room. One of the girls told me that that very day she had been walking in the store after the morning meeting and said to another one of the girls that she missed me. One of the managers said she was going to send me a facebook message since she needed to know what was up with me. It was nice to be there. I did not realise just how much I missed it. I am definitely going back to work at Christmas when I am in RD. I went out for coffee with Kady afterwards. And it was really nice actually. Which is weird for us, we normally end up with awkward silences and stuff. It's like she understands now. Everything. Like she started telling me some story about Henry and everything that happened with them in the last 6 months or so. And I like I hung out with Henry that week as well. So I had heard all of it already. I do not know really why both of them felt the need to talk about it. But when I told her that Henry had already told me and that he was crazy normal in ctown, she accepted it. It was nice seeing her. Kat and I hung out that night. Ate everything in sight. No big deal. And I saw Mia the next day and then hung out with Kat for rest of the day. And the next day I hung out with Kaia. And we got pedicures. Which was a first for me. So weird. And I went back to ctown early and finished moving everything in my new room. (We moved from a different apartment to a new one last week as well) My room got all nice and organized. Which is really nice. I have my own space now, it has been really good for me. I have been a lot happier since.

I had my first midterm this week. And my first paper due. So I am trying to behave myself and do everything before the last minute. I did not. I wrote my paper at like 6 pm the night before and studied for my test the same day I had it. But I think the test went really well. Since it was only on the first three chapters, cramming was still reasonable. Plus one of the chapters was genetics which is something I already knew and am really good at. People came out saying it was hard. I didn't feel that way at all, so I hope that's good news for me. The paper I totally slacked on. So I don't expect much from that. I found out I am doing better in calculus than I thought. So that was nice. I just need to sit down and study some. I avoided plans all week. Which was good for me. I am totally such a social butterfly it's out of control. I was eating everything in sight for the last week. I went h-core ana for the last couple of days. I am eating again as of today. I am so stupid. I need the energy from the food. I have been watching the first season of The O.C. lately. I forgot how awesome it was. I don't watch much tv these days. I have only been watching OTH, GG, GA. I also sort of started watching Vampire Diaries. I am behind a few episodes. But I have a good internet watching source, so I am trying to catch up.

Yesterday was my free day. It was the day I decided I could do whatever I wanted. So Katie came over early and saw the new apartment and she had made vague plans with Mike, this guy we met a couple weeks ago. Who tried to hook up with Katie. Who Katie's friend likes. Who texts me a lot. So all kind of all weird. So Katie and Mike were texting about hanging out. While I was getting ready, the first time I was wearing make-up and doing my hair since Saturday. I have lived in hoodies, ponytails and make-upless face all week because I just did not have the time to care. So yesterday I was going to care. My hair was straight, I was wearing make up. My clothes actually has some thought behind them. (Today I am back in my yoga pants and hoodie.) Whatever. So we went picked up Mike because later that night we were going to this fire, hosted by Katie's friend, who likes Mike. Who I barely know. Haha. Awkward. And there was drinking involved and since I am the sober one all the time, I drive a lot. So we went to Toy Story 1 and 2 3D! It was apparently super necessary because of me. Since we had plans to see it from earlier in the week that we both cancelled because of school. For both of us. So he told Katie that because I was coming that we had to go. So we went. Way too funny for a children's movie. Like it's not funny unless you understand the innuendo. Hah. Afterwards we went to the fire. And like one the way there Mike was whinning about how awkward it was going to be. And like it's so stupid, because he made it awkward. Like he is sort of playing Sarah. (The friend) Like if he didn't know she liked him, it wouldn't call it that. But since he knows, I don't know. I am not a 100% on the situation. So we go. And it was soooo cold. I live in Alberta, Canada. And mother nature this year decided we were going directly from summer to winter. Two weeks ago I was wearing shorts, now I am wearing winter boots, mittens and jackets and still freezing. So there was a lot of people there. And I didn't know anyone. But like I am okay in that sort of situation, so it was fine. And then this girl Jessica showed up. And her boyfriend is Mike's best friend which is how that whole thing is connected. Anyways, she was very quiet and obviously didn't like Katie. I didn't get the best vibe from her and it was weird because I have met and hung out with her boyfriend a couple times and he is very nice and they don't seem anything alike. Anyways, Jessica and Mike end up leaving to get Big Macs. And I could tell something was up. Next thing you know Sarah got a text saying they weren't coming back. And she was not happy. And every single person around the fire looked at her and started talking about how he was the guy who she liked. Like wow, I am so not one of those people that I let everyone in on stuff like that and the fact that literally 15 people including her brothers all knew. Eek. Especially since I know way more about the whole thing. Me and Katie left fairly early, we were freezing, Katie's super sick. So early night.

I got home and I was just prancing around getting ready for my night in. Katie was already texting me. Then I got a text from Mike whinning about how we didn't get to hang out. Hah. I was like uhhh, you ditched us, don't complain. And I was on facebook. Then he started talking to me on there. About Katie, I guess she was annoying him. Which I get. She has quite the personality. I am fine with it, but most people can't understand how I hang out with her so much. I guess I have known her so long that it doesn't matter. It just doesn't bother me. At all. Somedays I want to punch her out. But I tell her when that's going down. Anyways, we're talking and he asks if I want to do anything. And I am totally a yes person. So I say sure. He ended up coming over to watch a movie where he proceeded to pick HSM3 out of my collection to watch. So we watched it. And talked until 3 am. I haven't done that in so long with someone. Other than my best friends. I found out though that he thinks that Sarah doesn't like him anymore. And like I don't know what to say to anyone about all of that drama. Like uhh, I am really good at reading people plus I know stuff. Like it's out of control. And like I don't know how much I am pushing boundaries. Like I we are friends, but like 3 am movie watching.. I don't know. Like I don't have any preference with everything, but I don't want to make anyone mad. I will just keep my mouth shut. And not worry about it. I think.

I am randomly really obsessed with songs that remind me of the summer of 08. I don't know why. But I keep listening to them over and over again. And go back to what was going on then. It makes me realize how much I miss certain people. And still how much I don't know about decisions I made. Which is super weird to still be lingering on it. Everytime We Touch (the slow version) by Cascada is the first song I listen to everytime I use my iPod. So random. I miss them though. My friends from RD think that I am a bar star now. It's so funny. Anyways, this blog is way longer than I ever thought it would be.

Be honest no matter what.

[ONE] Who was your last text from?
Katie.

[Two] Where was your default pic taken?
My back pasture.

[Three] What's your middle name?
Ashley.

[Four] Your current relationship status?
Single.

[Five] Do you wish your relationship status was different?
Have I ever not been okay with being single?

[Six] What is your current mood?
Stressed.

[Eight] What color shirt are you wearing?
Blue hoodie, white tank.

[Nine] What was the last thing you drank?
Strawberry, banana Crystal Light.

[Ten] If you could go back in time and change something, would you?
I second guess my decisions all the time.

[Eleven] Have a crazy side?
Not really. Sometimes there is an insane side.

[Twelve] Ever had a near death experience?
Not that I can think of.

[Thirteen] Something you do a lot?
Listen to music.

[Fourteen] Angry at anyone?
Nope.

[Fifteen] Do you wanna see somebody right now?
I am always up for seeing people.

[Seventeen] When as the last time you cried?
Uhh, I can't actually remember.

[Eighteen] Who would you do anything for?
Yes.

[Nineteen] Who are your heroes?
Not really into the whole "hero" thing.

[Twenty]What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Face.

[Twenty-one] What do you usually order from Starbucks?
Skinny Caramel Latte.

[Twenty-two] What's your biggest secret?
Secrets, who has secrets?

[Twenty-three] Where is your ex?
Invisible.

[Twenty-five] Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
Not obsessed with Disney or anything.

[Twenty-six] What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
Nothing for once.

[Twenty-seven] Do you speak any other languages?
I can eye talk.

[Twenty- eight] Whats your favorite smell?
Spring, vanilla.

[Twenty-nine] Describe your life?
Change.

[Thirty] Have you ever kissed in the rain?
I have not had a Haley and Nathan moment.

[Thirty one] Do you like the rain?
Yes. As long as it is just rain, no storm.

[Thirty-two] What are you thinking about right now?
Gilmore Girls. Watching it. Loving it.

[Thirty-three] What should you be doing right now?
Studying for my midterms.

[Thirty-five] What are you listening to?
Lorelai and Rory talking about Rory and Dean kissing.

[Thirty-eight] Do you act differently around the person you like?
What person?

[Thirty-nine] What is your natural hair color?
Dark, dark, dark brown. And more than a couple of greys.

[Forty] Who was the last person to make you smile?
Not a clue.

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