so i cut all of my hair off. and donated it. my hair used to be three quarters the way down my back and now it's between my chin and shoulders and it doesn't even fit in a ponytail. it's kinda lame. but i like it. it's a lot easier to manage than my long hair was. i don't have any pictures yet. but i'll get some soon. and when i do. i'll put them up. my camera hasn't been nearly as present lately and my hair is dirty right now since i just got home and i don't wanna take any now.

so i backed out of my summer trip. i decided i didnt wanna go. so i am not. i am going to stay in town with my friends and have fun rather than get trapped in a van with my crazy cousin and her family. ick. so she's not impressed. and she just told me that i was invited to her grad and i can't get it off work so if i do get scheduled i am going to have to beg someone to take it. ughh. it's so annoying. i hate when i don't get notice for anything. and i hate the fact that work is being a pain in the butt. like i just gave them back three weeks i had booked off. get over themselves. and like i am the reason some of the scores went up at the store. they told me that. like honestly. they shouldn't be making me mad. it's my cousin's grad. i need to go. ughh. and it's a monday. like oh wow. they are a little short staffed. they always are. always. and i have to deal with it. because i actually come to work. so when am i going to get something that i deserve. ahh. not that i even wanna go to my cousins grad. but whatever.

so i went to the movies the other night. with randy. and we are just watching the previews and he's like there's henry and kent. and i thought he was talking about the preview like people like them. because it sorta made sense, so i continued to watch the preview. next thing you know. my knee is being touched and it scared the crap out of me. because the real henry and kent were there. haha. and then henry started bugging me about being there with randy who is one of my best friends. and i was like okay then. like henry knew i was hanging out with him because he got mad at me for not hanging out with him and hanging out with randy. so it was sufficiently awkward. especially since the whole possibly confessing to liking me things. it's been weird. and like randy knows all about that. so it was kinda just glances between people. the night before i talked to henry for a really long time and he kinda said something to me again about the whole liking thing. and told me that i had to come a bunch of places with him. so i really don't know what's going on.

oh yeah. and the power went out at the movie. so we never ended up seeing our movie. so me and randy went to kady's. and chilled.

so i am going to the stampede for three days in a couple weeks and i'm super excited. my dad lives in calgary during the week so me and kaia are going down to chill. and we're supposed to tell kent and henry when we are going so they can meet up with us. we haven't decided if we are going to tell them yet. and when i am up there i am going to meet up with the some fam and katie. (aka my cousin). so it should be lots of fun.

i slept over at kaia's house last night. and her boy was there for a bit. and kat also slept over. and we were talking to a drunken kid on the phone who likes my sister. and it was funny. because he wouldn't talk about it. and then we ended up going to the party they were at and they were trashed. and it was hilarious. and when we were going to trade vehicles at one point. we drove around a corner and there was this kid i totally recognized and i totally screamed his name at kaia and kat. and kaia was like drive faster to her boy. because the kid was totally her ex. that we used to always hang out with. but both me and kaia have totally different hair now and it was totally dark so we don't think he recognized us. it was fantastic though. and then today i went out for lunch with kat and kirsty and it was good. and now i am home. and on the computer.

stolen quiz timee

01. Eyeliner or Mascara? mascaraaaa

02. Louis Vuitton or Hooney & Bourke? don't care

03. American Eagle or Hollister? ae

04. Pumps or flats? everyday, flats. for extra fun, pumps.

05. Skirts or pants? either or

06. Socks or leggings? both (not at the same time)

07. Hoodies or jackets? def. hoodies

08. Heels or sneakers? everyday, sneaks. out, heels.

09. Straight or curly hair? used to be curly, but with short i guess straight

10. Hoop or dangling earrings? none

13. White or black? black

14. Victoria's Secret or Bath and Body Works? don't really care

15. Smoothies or latte? smoothies

16. Diet or regular sodas? regular

17. Water or daquiries? depends

18. Pearls or diamonds? pearls

19. Vintage or boho? vintage

20. Mary-Kate or Ashley Olsen? i always liked ashley since that's my middle name

21. Lindsay or Hilary? hilary

22. iPod or cell phone? cellular

23. Friends or family? depends

24. Lip gloss or lip stick? gloss

25. Manicure or pedicures? manicures

26. M.A.C or Sephora? sephora

27. Tank tops or beaters? tanks

28. Tiffany's or Chanel? chanel

29. Love or peace? love

30. Sunglasses or purses? sunglasses

X what you have:
[ ] an ipod/mp3.
[ ] a REAL Louis Vuitton purse.
[X] a computer.
[X] a cd player.
[x] a stereo.
[X] a spice girl cd.
[X] a cosmo girl magazine. or regular Cosmo
[x] a teddy bear.
[x] a build a bear.
[X] an American eagle purse.
[X] hollister shorts.
[ ] a hot topic shirt.
[x] a cell phone.
[x] an aeropostale shirt.
[x] a big screen TV
[x] the mean girls dvd.
[ ] a TV in my room.
[X] a big bed
[x] a brother or sister.
[x] a diamond ring / bracelet
[X] pearl necklace
[X] a prom dress.
[x] a book.
[ ] a myspace.
[X] curious perfume
[ ] g-unit sneakers.
[x] a black shirt.
[ ] a cig.
[ ] a kid.

peaceee

so my grad was two weeks ago. or maybe it was three now. anyways. it was pretty exciting and amazing. i had so much fun. all of the speeches except for a few were incredible. there was very little drama which was nice. and like you could just talk to everyone and it was fine and take pictures. i have LOTS of pictures. i am going to put a few on here. of like my best friends. better friends at least. anyways. the ceremony was my favorite part. i thought it all was just so cool and entertaining. and like so memorable. i loved it all.

the next day i went to my cousin's grad. which sucked so bad. like i haven't talked to my cousin in a couple of years. and the only reason i got invited was because katie our other cousin wanted me to be there. anyways. my cousin, greg whose grad it was, is so weird. like he's nothing like anyone i would even consider being friends with. he thinks he's a gangster but actually he's a farm kid from the middle of nowhere, which i don't have a problem. plus he's a lot into drugs which is definitely not my scene at all. like i know a lot of people who casually do drugs like at parties and stuff which i can handle. sorta. but my cousin is life type. and it's ridculous to me. anyways, there was only 23 people graduating and he was only friends with 2 of them. so i met no people. and my cousin katie who made me come ditched me and made out with greg's best friend. and the whole time i could have been at home having MY grad weekend with MY friends. so that sucked.

so yesterday i made plans with kat to go to the movies once she was off work. and while i was at work kaia called me and told me to call her on kent's phone. her current fling. so i did and she ended up deciding to come with us. so i tell her meet us at the theater at 920, but me and kat ended up being fairly late and kaia called me off of her ex-boyfriend's phone and tells me she's with mitch (ex) and kyle, a guy from school. anyways, me and kat get there and we stand outside the theater talking and eventually decide we don't really wanna go to a movie and then mitch and kyle decided to tag along and come with us to dinner. so all of us went out. and it was really fun. the whole time kyle was saying that we couldn't tell anyone that we'd gone out with him since his girlfriend kassie would get super mad. haha. it's hilarious since both me and kaia are friends with her. but he was right she would have gotten mad. so it's all on the dl.

during dinner i got a text from henry who was with kent and wanted to know if we wanted to come and play pool. and i said we were at dinner and we'd call them later. so after dinner (that mitch paid for, the whole reason to take him out) we called them and ended up heading to kent's parentless house. and we just chilled and played some pool for awhile and there was this other guy left and eventually us girls decided that we'd crash there for the night since we all were super tired and it seemed like fun. since kaia and kent have a thing, they went upstairs and me, henry and kat stayed downstairs and the other guy took off. so us three just screwed around for quite some time. we watched juno. and then i got overtired. and when i get overtired. it's not a good thing. i get talkie and super hyper. so i just wouldn't go to sleep and henry was being pest and stealing my blanket and pillow and it was all just not all that good. but we had fun and eventually crashed entirely.

then today we went out for breakfast and stuff. and i came home with kaia and kat. and bunch of my fences were down. and i started freaking thinking my horses were out. but thank god they weren't. but i ended moving them completely around and finding them a new water trough and all that jazz. and eventually i took the others home and came home to the computer. where i started talking to kat and she was telling me that henry wouldn't stop talking about last and more specifically me. and i was like whatever. and then he started talking to me. and we were just talking. like he's one of my best friends. so we can just talk. and he started talking about kaia and kent. and he wanted to know about bit more about the kaia side of things because apparently kent's confused. but i just played dumb since that's what i always do. and at this point kat had signed off and i was talking to kady. my other best friend aka henry's ex. anyways. next thing you know, henry says something about wondering if we could ever be more than friends and stuff. and i didn't answer right away. all i did was call kat immediately and was screaming at her about being semi right and stuff. and she's like he's so obsessed with you. and like i know that we flirt and stuff. but like that's just who both of us are. so to me it's completely innocent. and then around that same time he changed his facebook status so weird stuff. and it was kinda strange. and i responded saying basically the truth. aka probably not. since in general i'm not even thinking about being more than friends with anyone. and then he signed off. and hasn't talked to me since. it was all very weird. and like i don't know if i should be talk to kady about all of this since she can sometimes be kinda hung up on him. and i just don't know. so now i am kinda dealing with this. and by dealing, i mean feeling incredibly awkward. so i just don't know.

ooo, i bought a grad video the other day. they made them at school. i watched it today. it was great. they show the entire promanade and they showed quite a bit with me and henry with us both looking back and stuff. it was pretty cool. and there were like 20 pictures with me in them. it was great. and really good one of me and kaia.

quiz timee.

RICH BABE
[x] You have gone tanning.
[] You own an iPod/mp3 player.
[x] You love Starbucks.
[x] you have been called a brat.
[x] You have tons of shoes.
[] You hate buying things that are on sale.
[] You have a laptop.
[] You love shopping.
TOTAL: 4

GOTHIC
[x] Black is one of your favorite colors.
[] You wear chains.
[] You like heavy metal.
[] You've shopped at hot topic
[] You have worn black lipstick.
[x] You have/had/or wanted piercings.
[] You own a pair of ripped pants
[x] You have at least one unnaturally colored haired friend.
TOTAL: 3

PUNK
[] You can skateboard.
[] You like plaid.
[] You have Converse.
[] You hate mtv.
[] You have/had/wanted blue, orange, pink, red, purple, or green hair.
[] You love mohawks
[] You LOVE Music.
[x] Hate people who pretend to be something they are not
TOTAL: 1

EMO
[] You are depressed a lot.
[] You have dark colored thick-rimmed glasse.
[] You cry easily.
[x] You like emo music.
[x] You've kept a journal/diary.
[x] You have written a sad poem.
[x] You have dyed your hair
[] You're sad when you're drunk
TOTAL: 4

GHETTO/HOOD
[] You like rap.
[] You have said Sho, Fo Sh*zzle, Fo Sheezy, etc."
[] You have worn/wanted a grill.
[] You have/wanted to have had a freestyling contest
[] You have worn your shoes with the tongue flipped out.
[] You've said the N word to a black person and didnt get punched.
[] You know most of the lines from Boyz N Da Hood
[] You own a huge gold chain with a giant gold pendant
[] You have had to break in your window to get in the house
[] Kool-aid is the best
TOTAL: 0

HARDCORE
[x] You like loud music.
[] You like the Ninja Turtles.
[x] You have slip-on shoes.
[] You like Norma Jean.
[x] People have called you a freak
[] You love to "hardcore" dance.
[x] Your hair has been dyed more than one color.
[x] You wear jeans a lot.
TOTAL: 5

PREP
[x] You LOVE laguna beach/ The hills
[x] You had/have/want a tiny/small sized dog.
[] Your usual outfits consist of pink.
[x] You like buying shoes.
[x] You like Hollister.AE,and/or Abercrombie
[x] Getting your nails done is a fun thing.
[x] You have/had big sunglasses.
[] You can't go anywhere without your hair perfect.
TOTAL: 5

ATHLETIC
[x] You watch the Superbowl
[x] You own track shoes or cleats other sports related shoes.
[] You collect jerseys.
[] You have/had a special shelf for trophies and awards.
[] Your garage/shed consists of sports equipment.
[x] You belong/belonged to a team.
[] You have/had a specific number preferred for your jersey.
[x] You have/are playing a real sport.
TOTAL: 4

REDNECK
[x] Gone four wheeling.
[] Went hunting.
[x] Owned a four/three-wheeler or dirt bike, etc.
[x] like to go fishing
[x] Eat beef jerky
[x] Ever said GIT-R-DONE.
[x] Listened to the song Redneck Woman.
[] Know who Bocephus is
TOTAL: 6

The ONE that you have the most X's under will be your title!

You are: RedNeck/Prep. Hahaa. Truthh. i have grown up countryy. but go to school in the city. i believe thiss.

so it won't let me post my pictures and it's really annoying, but i'll try again some other day.

"Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there? Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly"
-Graduation (Friends Forever), Vitamin C

"Whenever you remember times gone by
Remember how we held our heads so high
When all this world was there for us
And we believe that we could touch the sky
Whenever you remember, I'll be there
Remember how we reached that dream together
Whenever you remember"
-Whenever You Remember, Carrie Underwood

i am hardly on here anymore, but i felt the need to write. so here i am. i always manage to turn up when something is bothering me. or i am just feeling a little bit iffy. so my grad is in 3 days, 14 hours. aka the title of this blog. i am in such a weird stop right now. like it feels so weird. i can't explain it at all. i was just reading my blog from this time last year. and it's so weird. like things have changed so much, but so little at the same time. like i was talking about how i was drifting away from mia. and i totally have. like me and her are still friends, but not best friends like we used to be. and i was talking about brett being elected president at school and today was the election for next year and now he's training the new president. and henry and kady having a thing again, something that has been happening on and off since then. but i also talked about hating henry. haha. and now he's one of my best friends and my grad date, so things have changed. and i didn't mention kaia's name once in any of my blogs from last year and now i rarely i don't go without a day without at least talking to her. and things with me and kady have deterioted so much since this time last year. i don't know. it's really weird.

i am getting a little amped up for grad. we had an assembly the other day. and it was so weird. since i didn't recognize a lot of people in the room. and it's like how did i go four years without seeing these people. or people who i know i have had courses with but have no idea what their names are. or the random people i used to talk to all the time and now i wouldn't even think about saying a single word to. its all so odd. at both parts of grad, all of the students making speeches are some of my best friends. which i think is pretty cool. like brett is making a speech, someone who i have known since grade 9. and so is mia who was one of my best best best friends. and michelle who i have known since the first grade. and allie who is a fairly recent friend. but i love the fact that i know them all well. it's cool. i know this sounds bad and arrogant, but like i am apart of the popular group in school, so all of this is kinda turning out high school cliche movie. and i like it. it's living up to the expectations that you see in every tv show and movie. it's all kind of awesome.

at the same time everything is hitting me at once. like this is the beginning of the end of everything that is so great about high school. i love high school. i am good high school. i don't wanna leave. i like my life now. but at the same time, i am completely over the whole thing. i am sick of drrama and people always judging you for nothing. i don't know. it's all so bitter sweet. the other day i went into a sandwich place with kaia and this guy i went to middle school with works there and me and him used to be really good friends and totally had a thing for quite sometime. like even after i left middle school early. and went to high school when everyone stayed behind. and it's weird seeing people like that since it seems like another lifetime to me. it was only four years ago since i went to that school and my life was in that town. but i can't even really remember the side of me anymore. and also in there shop there was four people i grew up with eating in there. like kindergarten to grade 8. those were the people i know. there was about 35 of us the whole time i went to school there. every second from the time i was 4 to 13 was spent with them. and here i am four years later, i didn't even think about going to talk to them. it's the weirdest sensation. it's so weird. i don't know.

the next couple of days are going to be odd. and like family is coming down for the whole thing. and i don't know. the ceremony is going to get me the worst. like i need hardcore waterproofing. haha. i don't have to drive out to my cousin's grad the next day anymore, my aunt and uncle are taking me, so more sleep for me. which excites me. grad. ahh. weirdd.

quiz.

101 truths
1. real name? Lauren
2. age? 17
3. single or taken? single
4. zodiac sign? scorpio
5. male or female? female
6. elementary? p-hole
7. middle? p-hole
8. high school? ltchs
9. eye color? brown
10. hair color? dark brown
15. are you a health freak? opposite
16. height? 5'3
18. do you like yourself? generally
19. piercings? one in each ear.
20. tattoos? hopefully in the future
21. righty or lefty? rightyy

Firsts.
22. first surgery- something on my belly
23. first Piercing- ears
24. first best friends- lindsay
25. first award- elementary. grade 4. best effort.
26. first sport - gymnastics
27. first pet- 2 cats
28. first vacation - ontario
30. first crush - kyla

Currently. (within the last hour)
49. eating - rice
50. drinking - milk
51. I'm about to - read
52. listening to - hannah montana
53. waiting for - dumb grad to get here
54. wearing - skank sweats and tank top

Future.
55. kids? - definitely
56. want to get married? - of course
67. careers in mind - lots.

Preferences for the opposite sex.
68. lips or eyes - eyes
69. hugs or kisses - hugs
70. shorter or taller - taller
71. tan skinned or light - doesnt matter
72. romantic or spontaneous - both at once
73. dark or light hair - either
74. muscular or normal - somewhere in between
75. hook up or relationship - relationship
76. similar to you or different - both. combination. more different.
77. trouble maker or hesitant - depends on scenario

Have you ever.
78. kissed a stranger? - haha, yeah.
79. drank bubbles? - yes
80. broken a bone? - no
81. climbed up a tree? - yes
82. broken someones heart? in the most middle school of ways.
83. turned someone down? - lots.
85. liked a friend as more than a friend? haha, who hasn't.
90. had sex on the first date? nope.
91. believed in angels - no

Answer Truthfully.
92. is there someone you want to be with right now? not really.

Lasts
93. text message - katherine
94. received call - randy
95. call made - kaia
96. message on facebook - katie
97. missed call - mike
98. person you hung out with - kaia
99. you hugged - henry
100. you talked to - cara
101. said I love you to - couldn't tell you.

peaceee