I havent posted one of these in years because I still dont think I've really made my voice hearable. I do and say things that can seem immature at times and at other times I may seem comepletely different possibly leading some to believe I am either schitzophrenic or wishy-washy in my beliefs.
I know what I believe, and it boils down to true freedom. I dont personally believe anyone has to agree with me on my moral outlook on life, just that they accept that mine is different then theirs and they have no right to tell me I cant live how I live. Like me words are harmless and unchanging. We may create new words to belittle, or change the affect of a word but the original word will never be lost.
Some words hold more power then others, and depending on the culture that power can be unpredictable of its outcome. While I believe in positive thinking and change for the better, I know it will never happen, and I will never do anything more then blog quietly about how much I disagree with activism and intolerance.
I'm a weird guy, i've come to accept that. I say too much (or write too much in some cases) and nobody wants to read it, or in some cases im told I could've gotthe point through faster. When I figure out a way to be interesting I'll stick to that and I'll know because I wont be bored by my own projects 
Well, BBCA started up a new season of Torchwood. Gotta say, the ending of season 1 was fantastic as well as the season as a whole so I was very excited to see season 2. Of course (as expected actually) they did go the route of Capt. Jacks past (alot we dont know about him even though we know more then Torchwood, there's still stuff we dont know about him). Anyway, the first episode was awesome and while some things we're silly (I think it may have been intentional actually) nothing detracted from the show and it still feels right (although some stuff about relationships between some members that are honestly unexpected cropped up so I'm interested to see whats up with this).
So, ya I'm really excited to see where thats going to go. It's always fun to watch the evolution of great shows and I've had the privilege to see this show from beginning to present so I'm interested to see where it goes. Hopefully, it doesnt end up crashing and burning like Deadzone did (man last season I watched of that was sooo lame!) and I hope it maintains itself and doesnt start rehashing certain ideals.
On other fronts, I watched The Prestige the other day. Fascinating movie. It's quite interesting to see that movies take on morality and the justifications people give themselves based on vengeance or obsession. While I did see half the secret in the movie coming from a mile away the movie really did a good job at keeping the other half a comeplete mystery to me (it was actually what I thought could never be it, cant even be sure why I thought that). If you havent seen it yet, and you like movies about obsession as well as magic and like movies set in early 1900s you should check it out. Its a fun watch, especially to see how deep Hugh Jackman's character goes over a honest mistake which did indeed change everyones lives in the movie.
In other news, everything so far is going ok for me in my new job. It's really scary to think that I need to answer these questions for people and quite often stuff crops up that I'm so scared I'm doing something wrong because I cant fix it. Everything I know is not working. I'm still trying to figure out how to get around that but if I can I think I will be fine. These people that call are very scary to me, and I try to be nice as I can but computers can be weird. Sometimes they just do what they want and you have no clue why. This happens alot to me and I really want to help but I dont have the answer. Its quite scary to me, but im trying to not worry about that. Everything will work out and I will be good at this. I just have to believe in myself. I know that.
Anyway, one step at a time, thats where life is taking me. Hopefully the last step is where I get comfortable because right now the road is rocky and I'm trying to watch my step. 
Welcome to another exciting adventure of ranting and pointless drivel that endorses the eating of cheese!
I wanted to start this one off by sharing that I passed my test at work (YAY! It means I get to keep my job, and for all intensive purposes I GOT THE JOB which if it's based on tests about computer stuff I shouldnt have been worried about that, but I was) so I got my dream job (my foot in the door of the industry) doing what I want to do to pay bills in case my writing or gaming or writing about gaming never gets me anywhere (which it probably wont, but have to be optimistic there haha). So, ya I'm now a Tech Support guy and if your in an area the company I work for covers you may get me on the phone (who knows). Dont worry though odds are if your reading this you know what your doing your just baffled and dont have the resources I have to find the answer to your problem. Also dont worry because I really am a nice guy, I just need to vent where no one will hear it and it would appear either no one likes my blogs (which is perfectly fine) or else I havent found an interesting hook yet to make it worth being sociable with me. Whatever, its cool. Just dont be scared of me, im not gonna bite yer head off! Well, maybe haha... No promises
Anyway all kidding aside I have now got a dilemma on my hands pertaining to my EQ2 endeavour which really encompasses more then one topic today actually. Sometime around the end of this year the game I've been waiting for should be ready to come out (heres hoping) and I will have to say goodbye to the guild/community I have in EQ2. Unfortunately that guild/community is not very big and more importantly to me not very fun all the time (not always someone on, not always stuff to do) so I really do want to move on from it. The game, outside of the small guilds (like the one im in), is totally run by elitists making it no fun to play (the game is designed entirely around raiding which requires PEOPLE which all the big elitist guilds have so bleh... the game gets boring). I do have to be honest though I really like playing with the people there and dont want to leave. I wanted to get this guild moving and have a steady stream of content for alot of people along a good and fun atmosphere at any time of the day (like a decent guild should have and I've only pulled this off twice in other games) but I'm not sure if this guild would ever be able to get that far and as fun as these people are they cant (lets be real... pratical about this) be around enough so... I dont know. I cant see myself staying with the game for very much longer. It's not really the game I want to play anyway, and I'm hoping this game I want to play will keep me around for years to come. I'd love that!
So, that sucks and it leads me into my next topic of pointlessness... The new game Stargate Worlds is in Development! YA, I know, shocker right. I was also told development stopped but only recently found out it was picked up again and the ball is rolling. The devs there are incredible. They almost seemed to have researched everything about current MMOs and want to encopmpass really whats more practical gameplay for MMOs rather then money sucking but overall pointless gameplay that ends up making you feel like you wasted months of your life.
I also want to point out here I am a huge fan of the show + movie but I'm trying to keep that in the backburner and only use that when it comes to how I feel the game should feel (there are things in the world of Stargate you just cant do and if you do I just want a good reason that you did). Also I had some concerns about the way the armor looked (too halo-ish for me, and not pratical in the stargate world) but that was quashed when a Dev (I know right, a dev answered someone back about this, actually several times devs have talked to the community about this) pretty much said "dont worry thats not the only concept we have" (im paraphrasing, but thats in context).
If you havent seen it yet check out the teaser they put together. Its old news to most people now but who knows, you may learn about it here so I'll link it for ya, just click here, the video is in the video area of that page. Also has some good interviews you can read if your interested at all. I suggest you read all the interviews released so far if your at all interested in this game. It is going to be way different from most MMOs out right now and it may be really fun who knows. Of course this is all speculation at this point, and only going off of what they say but it sounds fresh and I cant wait to check this game out whenever (either beta or live whatever I just cant wait!) it comes into my hands to play it.
Anyway, thats about it for this week. Alot of craziness, but I try to stay focused... keep my chi in tact. You may have noticed I didnt cuss this week. Well, im not mad about anything right now I'm actually in a good place and hoping for the best. It's going to be a rough month (cant pay bills yet) but overall im very excited for the future for once. Here's hopin all goes well for me, right!
Additional Stargate Worlds Resources:
Official Stargate Worlds Website
Official Stargate Worlds Forums
GameSpots Interview for those uninterested in searching for it
Warcry's Interview with Kevin Balentine
Theres more if you want to look for them but these are probably the best out right now. You can also find alot of great stuff on the offical website/forums, and see some more special stuff just by registering for the forums... if your at all interested in this game I suggest you check that out. For now, I have no good quip for you, but keep it real!
Tigers tails and sleeping bulls and stuff... what?
