I will be living a life long dream in 10 days. On October 6th I will be traveling to Ireland, County Cork to be exact, where I will spend 20 days.

I've a friend there, Mark, who I care deeply for. He'll be spending part of my time there with me. Kinda cool to have someone from there willing to show me around and get me used to things.

This will be my first vacation since my illness so I'm really excited. I will have my laptop with me, and if I can get connected I will be monitoring my queue. If for some reason it takes a bit longer for me to get to your submissions I ask that you be patient.

Wish me luck and I'll keep ya posted. Love you guys.

It's been so long since I've spent any time here. I've missed so much. Most importantly Gabfan's birthday. I'm so sorry my friend. I hope you can forgive me.

Things have gone from bad to worse for me. I can't even go into everything because it's too painful. It's to the point where I might cancel the trip to Ireland that I have planned for September.

My co-worker Tess passed away last Thursday. She was at work on Tuesday so nobody expected it. However, she was 94, so I guess it shouldn't have been so much a surprise. It's hurt me so much and I can't talk about it with anyone.

My other co-worker, Carol, seems to be doing better. Yet with her illness you just never know. I want to thank all of you for your thoughts and prayers, I know they helped.

I'm not sure if you remember me saying, a while back, that I was going to start working on improving myself because I was tired of feeling so badly since my surgery. Well... I've lost a nice amount of weight... and yet I've never felt worse about myself. I just don't understand it. People keep complimenting me and such and yet I look at myself and am not pleased at all. I'm not sure what's happened. I used to like myself, flaws and all, and now I just think 'blah.' I should be happy and I'm not.

Sadly, I've not seen Guiding Light in months. I'm eventually gonna have to find someone who records the show and buy copies from them. As pathetic as it sounds... this upsets me to no end. Not the buying copies thing... the missing the show thing.

Anyway... please remember I love you all, as always.

My co-worker Carol, who I told you a while back had both brain and lung cancer, is again ill.

Both of her C's are back and she is now in the hospital. They can no longer perform cyberknife surgery on her brain so now she will have to have brain surgery to try and fix the problem.

Please, pray for Carol and her two daughters. They lost their father last year to a sudden illness, please pray for Carol.