everytime i blog about to party well not much has changed my friends.. its thursday nite mates want me to go out and im ready kinda and comtemplating if i should go...
so... im slack i know. hmmmmmm
ive been partying and drinking way too much lately... a couple of weekends ago i had a party.. there was a bar tab... need i say anymore.. I actually couldnt walk.. i had massive bruises cause i kept falling.. omfg it was bad but kinda fun.. not tha falling part.
remember that dude.. well yeah i ended up running into him.. yummy bartender dude.. and he is sexy. he doesnt have an eyebrow ring!! hes really nice we were going to hookk up that weekend but I couldnt because I was 2 drunk.. and amongst other things. LOL. i sound like a whore now... but long story short we didnt and yeah stufff happened no not that stuff.. and overall it sucks 
hahahaha.. i know that doesnt tell you much but I understand it and thats all that matters..
you guys should be proud of me... I went out to a party had one glass of wine and partied like an awesome sober sally.. i HAD SO MUCH FUN and maybe i dont need alcohol maybe i just like it? lol everyone thought i was drunk I wasnt.. ive found a club where the cute guys are.. LOL wooo.. im thinking bout going there now.... but i bet it will suck tonight.. and I cant find anything to wear even though i have stuff ive never worn thats cute.. im just not feeling it 2nite.. but I think if i dont go out it will be awesome. LOL. omfg im such a girl.
im going to see la roux on thursday woooooo! Im going to soundwave.. and like next week BDO lineup gets annouced and rumour has it that Muse are headlining.. look u already know im going!!!! LOL 
yay.. im a festival whore i'd go to all of them if i had the money.
dont start me on money. or my course. honestly... it will make me depressed and I will cry.
lifes on a downhill spiral.. i think i bring it on myself though Im not sure maybe I do.. maybe I dont.. i Dont know anymore.
all I know is.. the other day one of my closest friends said she was worried about me.. makes me feel even worse.
I have a lot going on inside my head i think i should go talk to someone.. but im the type of person that hates talking about my feelings how unlady like
hahahaha awesome.. so... anyways. I should blog more often cause i forget **** that happens cause im a retard
I cant believe it I ended up speaking to my brother.. ihavent spoken to him for maybe 4-5 years... I still dont like him or really want to talk to him.. I dont trust him and really want nothing to do with him it was the circumstances that made me. do I regret it yes. I know that sounded f*cked up but I guess ur not me and you dont know what I've been through.
I guess thats the same with everyone though. wow this is not making me want to go out... lol
happy thoughts.... no there are none atm 
lol
so...... im sorry ive missed ppl's blogs ill read them oneday I promise
ok.. well im going to try n go out and party... sober round 2 hahaha.
ahhhhhhhhhhhh i dont know......
title- empire of the sun- without you... wish i was going to parklife lol. awesome song and describes a lot for me well kinda LOL but its an awesome song
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EOmwrLgrBBI
catch ya on the flip side
edit;
ok im a good girl and went out!!!! its past 4 am in the morning... i had an awesome night... and omfg i ran into dustin.. i want to stab him... staby staby.. ahhh when i saw him i had 2 drinks.... to take the edge off!!! and I wasnt drunk I was sober I danced my arse off.. and wtf do i see guys from highschool out and they all recognise me. nooooooooo
and for the record there was so hot f*cking pieces of arse out tonight just so you all know!!!! drool drool.
I went to the bathroom.. yes i know you need to know... and this gay guy came into the toilets and sat on the seats waiting for his other friends/ girls and guys in the chick toilets.. this girl comes in and sits next to me.. look and sees that guy who you could clearly tell he was gay .... she was like get out you F*cking **** and punched him... she was very drunk I know it wasnt right but it was something u had to be there for.. it wasnt as bad as it sounds. but yeah....
still cant believe i saw him... noooooooo anyways. I had a good night and i was sober.. 2 times in a row. woot woot louder woot woot. mmmmmmm i cant sleep im wired up I shouldnt have left!!!!!!!!!
im in a better mood now lol
xoxox