I really don't think that having bipolar disorder is a good enough reason for anyone to talk angrily, yell at their children, or demean their children for being outside of the norm. I am the unfortunate child of a woman who is bipolar and going through menopause. Unfortunately I can't bring myself to be the perfect little child that she wants me to be. I mouth off to her and I get pissed off when she says stupid stuff. She thinks she knows so much about me but in reality she doesn't know anything. I am doing my best to be nice to her, but it's hard when she gets mad about the smallest things. Just today she got pissed off because as she was rummaging through the fridge for sour cream she knocked a bottle of vitamin water out of the fridge and as it hit the floor it exploded. She started yelling for someone ELSE to bring her towels and was pissed off because my father was on the phone with his [third] son, Jack. I don't understand what gives her the right to get so frustrated about the smallest of things.

I really don't know what I want to do with the rest of my life at this particular point in time. I am so comfortable with how things are. I don't have to worry about friends or school or money. I have amazing friends and a super easy job. I enjoy going to school and being able to socialize with friends that I only get to see at school.

I'm at the point right now where I just don't want to come home. I want to stay at school for longer and avoid the terrible pain of coming home. I know that every time I open my mouth I will get yelled at. Anything I do will be wrong. Any effort I try to put forward will be pushed aside and seen as wrong.

So why do I even try?

There's no pleasing that woman.

I really should get around to posting and keeping up with this blog; how else am I going to know what Snyder is up to? Haha, I guess I talk to her enough that I don't HAVE to read this blog to know what is going on with her.

I don't really know what else to say right now, I should really be working on homework right now. I just can't bring myself to do it because all I have to do is read and how fun can that really be?

I have come to realize that my life is really boring and there is nothing that I want to do to fix that. All I am about is school and work, but I WANT more than that. I want to have tons of friends and be completely stress free, but I'm afraid I don't know why I choose the life I choose. I am amuzed however at the number of people I am friends with that are just like me (personality wise).

I am a bitter, cynical, sarcastic, funny, smart, happy, outgoing, dertermined, focused, judgemental, angry, boring person who has nothing better to do than homework, watch tv/movies, and goof around online.

A lot of my friends are JUST as mean as I am. Honestly, I'm surprised that I have any friends at all. I don't know what it is about me that is so likable.

I really don't find my life that boring but when people ask me about it I have nothing to tell them. I can't just turn around and say that I have done anything exciting or new with my life. I am too much like my dad on some things. When I get home I like to relax. I don't want to do things, sometimes I don't even want to talk to anyone that isn't in the house and people just don't understand that.

Ok.. I'm done for now. I SHOULD be back on soon. I'm starting a new blog on blogspot.com.

Just check it out http://daniellebies.blogspot.com/

I don't know how often I'll blog on there or if I'm just going to be posting random things. I'll do my best to get on here though.. just for Snyder. =P

Hmmm... well I suppose I could post a blog since it has been oh so very long since I have posted my last one. I am very dissapointed in this writers strike, I don't get to see any of my shows. =[

As far as the rest of my life goes, it's pretty boring... as always. I do get to go to SanDiego though! That should be super fun. =D I am going to visit one of my best friends, he's in the navy. I know that I'm going to see the ship yard and we're going to the zoo... we CAN go to six flags, but I don't know if I want to spend 40 dollars just to do that.. we'll see. I should be pooped by Monday.

I also have a midterm that I'm going to have to squeaze in there somehow. I don't know exactly how I'm going to get it done, but I will work my magic and see what I come up with! =D

Doot doot doooooo.... I'm bored, waiting for work. And I'm tired... that doesn't help me much, but this coffee does. =]

I'm leaving for SanDiego on Thursday... Valentines Day! =-o
Obviously I don't have a life so I'm not really going to be missing out on much... not many guys like me and the ones that I know do are wierd, and the ones I like are all taken or out of my league... how sad.

I just remembered that I forgot my DS.. what shall I do while I work now? My homework I suppose... I do have some things that I need to get done before tomorrow... since I have 6ish hours I should be able to get everything done that I need to get done. My job is super duper easy... it's frustratingly easy though... =

hmm... what else to write? I just lost about a paragraph of writing somehow... I don't know what I did, but it's gone.. no getting it back now. Don't worry it wasn't anything important. =P