One might say that a home is a place for one to rest. Some may say a home is something that one might feel warmth and happiness a place to escape the harsh reality of the world. not I a home to me was a woman a place I longed for years a place to return to and share my life a place that I would die to protect and place I would've worshiped like I was supposed to. No a home isn't hollow bricks or soft wood or the things one places to feel welcomed. No is who you are welcomed by and with whom embraces their loving arms on to you. Because there in those arms is warmth far hotter then any wildfire, that heat will leave you with nice and warm then any gases can give. Gentleness softer then any feather, with each touch will leave your worries as they were never there to begin with.

A woman isn't a home no they are just things for our own pleasure and entertiment. most men would say they lost their visions of love and threw away of weak feelings of passion, happiness bath themselves in raw sexual conquest because what they believed as children of sugar coated dreams of love was burned barren and in the mist of it all they seen was lies. not I, I've kept believing in true love because of this world will forever see themselves as idol gods and the quest for power and riches will forever blind them. I cherished this feeling of love never resenting it .flow deep into my core of my heart. Women are not things they wore created with god's power and were infused with respect by his imagine because it is their power and honor strong will that give us men strength to be protectors of our families. As such I've always have respected my love because without respect one's home with crumble down as such an empire would because love, trust, respect are the keys to the lock of a home.

But I lost that home and now forever homeless because of fear. After so many years searching for a place to experience love. Out of fear and blinded ignorance I became lost into the darkness I lived with even though I have embraced the light of love, felt the pleasures of happiness. But the droplet of doubt and fear grew of losing one's home after finding it was hard and the more I felt lost decent from that palace of pure bliss. I still remember the times we've spent laughing and crying together and the stronger our passion became fruition but alas as this once pillar of great peace and love has fell due to my fears these doors will not open for me no, because I brought fear and mistrust also hate.

At a time like this what would a man with such weaken heart do? Begin a path to get stronger with faith that one day the path to rebuild the love and peace of that home with the wisdom and honor of god but also with the woman he hopes to gain her trust and friendship in time hopefully it'll re-spark the flame of passion and then one can truly say "I'm home." But till then I most walk on these cold frigid streets feeling the icy shards of tears of pain I caused. Reminded of your cries that covers me from darkled city sky. Feeling the hard concrete floors that quake for every scene that replays how happy you were and how quick it all fall by my hands. But I'll try my best to build a new home for us. And I know replaying how I changed or repent for my actions won't work but like every man knows one can't recreate a home without tools so for now I hang this on my wall "home sweet home"

BY: Walter Quiñonez J.r.

i wrote this as i was writing it based on someexperiences i've been through these passed few months but i wanted i wrote this notonly to tell someone how i feel but also to teach people that women are not just things that lay there next to you as a pleasure toy like most man out here think i wanted state that is hard finding someone worth caring for and yes i know i can't say i'm better then most but i lost my love because i feared losing her to someone and i ended up losing her to myself. but will find away to show her that i have changed even if it takes years or even if she never wants to speak to me i will let her see the progress for herself as i needed to trust her for herself so i hope she sees the growth and changes i went through and don't not worry i'llalways have you in my heart as well in my prayers my beloved hope we can be friends. (BTW Tell me Transformers wasn't hot come on i was mad happy it would've been better if you was next to me in threaters you know since we both waited for this day for sooo long!!!)