I'm going to start this blog post saying hi to my new gay friend Jon! He's utterly great! So this is how the idea for the blog post came! Is there a celebrity you have fantasies about?! Straight girls and guys who is that one person who could turn you gay I would love to know what you think. And I'm going to start. Now I've never even thought about women since I?m a straight girl and proud of it babe! But when I first saw Ktherine moennig in an episode of the L word I fell in love with her. Seriously! She's hot and Hot and hot and intelligent and soooooooo awesome... here you got a photo of her too

http://kathemoennig.altervista.org/foto12-05-06/katherinemoennig-pic30.jpg/

Oh and forgot to mention that my friend just loves Zachary Quinto but you all probably know him, he's Sylar in Heroes.

Now who's that ONE celebrity or person who can turn you gay

I dind't really want to write on this blog anymore but recent events made me decide against it! Yes fellows I found out some shocking things!!! Not that there's been some snow in south Africa kind of shocking but a waaaay way worse kind of shocking.

Now you know "Life stinks" when more than 3 of the following are true:

a) the best rapper is a white guy

b) the best golf player is a black

c) the tallest man in the world is a chinese

d)Tweetie is a girl!!!

e)the great SPIKE in BtVS is older than your father!!

f)you actually liked katie cassidy in SuperNAtural last week(shhhhh... don't tell anyone)

g)the most intersting thing to watch at 11 pm is the L WORD

h) you pay 50 cents for a newspaper and 5$ for a magazine

i) there are people who like going to school on Saturdays

j) a house in Rome is more expensive that one in New York

So do you need other reasons?!

Leave a comment and until next entry don't forget to skip school... just kidding. As the great Van Wilder once or twice or three times or.. um, ok said: DON't BE A FOOL STAY IN SCHOOL!!

Lots of hugs,

Dada

so guys about my last post: well ifound out that the language class was full so i had to either decide whether I wanted to stay at my old school(which I kinda hate) or I wanted to go to another one(same type however) but in addition study english all years.. I had about 5 hours to decide and of course none of the people who could advise me were there...sure, my parents gave me the ultimatum yesterday evening at 11 pm so i haven't sleep all night but in the end managed to talk to a great friend of mine... our conversation was a lot like dean's monologue in front of sam's body.. i'm not kidding.. I probably said "WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?!!" about 100 times.. After talking to my friend and remembering all my life.. and all the risks I've taken. I mean I moved to a foreign contry when I could've stayed hime, I've learnt a new language in 2 months, I've changed schools tons of times, I didn't listen to what my parents and teachers said and did the exact contrary and I ended up fine.. of course i've done mistakes but i don't think i regret them that much but i'm always thinking what would've happenedn if i would've done things differently. I know.. it's weird cause i'm only 16 but I think I've finally realized how much my future is important. Of course I won't actually do what i want for at least a couple of years but it's already something. I started wanting to be a doctor.... I started hating hospitals after my car accident when I was 5, I wanted to be a lawyer for so long but I finally realized how much I would hate to do paperwork all day long. I wanted to be an English teacher when I started eighth grade in italy but I soon realized how frustrated I would've become since, and no offence to italians what so ever, but they suck at learning english... lol... then I wanted to be a UN-something... i know it sounds strange but i thought I could help the world.. and then my stupid shallow self kicked in.. why should I care so much about others when the others obviously don't care about me. It's not that I don't have friends but I feel that I can't have a best friend forever, I don't know any person here that I actually trust with all my secrets. Then I wanted to be a translator but in the end what would I do?! I don't know if I could stand staying here for the rest of my life. Until now my interests are: music, movies, litterature, travelling, meeting people.. and I did about 10 carrier test.. all of them told me that I would be great as a personal assisstant... and now that i think about it, I would meet people, I would help people. I would of course travel, I want to really enjoy myself when I'm working and of course if I worked with a celeb I coud score free stuff too.. that's shallow me speaking again.. But I don't want to be a PA just for celebs(yeah I understand that It's gonna be hard to actually score a job with anyone I like staying in italy.. actually it's hard to get a job with a celeb period.) i think i'd like to work with the director of a company.. I don't know... being a PA sounds interesting and I hope I could do this... My parents don't even know about this cause they're the type of people who think that you have to work your ass out for doing something you enjoy... and they're right... I've had the flu and I have to stay in bed for another couple of days and today I was watching "the hills" and I realized how easy is for pretty rich girls to land the job of their dreams and since I don't consider myself such a beauty(ok I'm cute and all but now like those girls) and I'm not that rich I don't know if there will ever be a place for me. Today I was checking out my mom's resume and I realized how full it is and she still got a bit of trouble finding a job she likes... what about me... 16 years of life and I haven't done anything.. I spent my summer at the beach enjoying freedom.. I haven't done a thing. I mean my resume's practically blank... ughhhh

You know, I just realized how much my life changed over the last 2 years, in 5 days I'm gonna go home for vacation... i'm going to see my grandparents, my relatives and my friends...and i don't think they'll ever going to recognize me.. i can't even recognize myself.... it's weird to know how much I loved certain stuff only 2 years ago and now I'm totally the opposite of what I was. I don't even enjoy my life that much, I worked so hard in my first year of highschool and I got good grades.. actually for me they're average... I once had 10(like A) in everything and now I got a max 7(like a C+ i think) and it's not that i didn't do anything... I studied so hard and nobody counts this...they don't even give the grades well... they gave me a four just cause my cellphone rang. they gave me a 8 at a test where I've done everything perfect.and then there's the fact that I've been so closed, so tired and so craky since I moved here. It's difficult enough to make friends but in a foreign country and with people that think you've got the fleas until they actually meet you and of course even after that think they're superior just cause they live in their own country doesn't really make me see my future here.. I would be a 90 year old cat lady who hates people. when I'm not like that and I hate that I even think about a future involving cats. And It's so hard and so frustrating to realize you haven't been happy in such a long time.. like really happy, not thinking of what could've happen and just enjoying life. And I start crying cause i don't like myself and I know it's not good and I'm depressed when I should be happy and living life... and I can't stop thinking that I'll have to live with my parents until I'm about 40(like almost everyone here) and that I'm a failure and that I won't ever be happy and that life is so f***ed-up.

untill i manage to come back to what I once was I wish you all the best and well, when life gives you lemons make lemonade.

hugs guys...