and here i am, HI!

well, it seems since my last post 5 months 13 days passed. WOW ? well not really because when i look at it now, it seems like minutes. time is something terrible, frightening...it plays with you. while in prensent state you think it flows slowly but when you reach future and your present moments become past, you see as time flows so fast. i just remember what was i doing 5 minutes ago clearly, so do you and i remember exactly what was i doing 5 months ago. i was absent here, i mean home but when i came back i really felt like did i even leave for 5 minutes. i understand old people better now. whenever someone would say "time flows fast", i would say "i live it like moments and remember every moment so its slow for me"... my brain remembers what it wants and when it remember old times clearly, i realize that time flows fast really. its just a mind trick...hmm a mind trick ? so does this mean my brain doesnt want to remember those 5 months ? it seems so ( hmm, before that I was living a good life and i was remembering these short past times ? its nice to notice ? ). so when people remember their old good days clearly and look at their present state, they say woah it just happened like 5 minutes ago but when they add reality into it, one thing become certain, time is something that we never know its true value and slips through our hands while we dont even try to hold. the time between those moments, days, weeks, months, years passes like minutes when you look back, so start to learn how to use your time and even you cant hold the time, just use it to not regret later.

the weird thing is when you come back and see some troubles, you find them like they happened because you were not there, they appeared silently to trouble you, they were waiting for you to leave so they can appear and when you come back you would find that its already late and you cant do anything... its weird, why the feel of hero ? the world just continues to live, they would happen anyway even if you were around, but "would you be able to stop them?" question comes and makes you the hero in your dreamy thoughts, if i were here etc etc. even its true, its now in the past, look above--> time flows fast...

and here we are since my last post 5 minutes ago...I still remember the story and where was I, so i continue to play Final Fantasy XII without any problem. though i play it slowly, i'll beat it eventually its a great game, i just realized again. i missed this game and my ps2 so its our reunion party maybe i should play different games too but i just cant stop when i start that game.

PS3 seems still the same and when will Metal Gear Solid 4 be released...PS3 needs definitely better games to impress people because now I start to think MGS4,GT5,FFXIII wont be enough to save PS3. come to think of it, Xbox360 has just few games too, Mass Effect, Eternal Sonata, Forza Motorsports 2 but if i buy a xbox360 there will be non-exclusive games that i can get too so Xbox360 seems easy to get. but since i want to buy a PS3 when MGS4 makes it appearence, i think i dont need xbox360. these thoughts are all PS3's fault to not become a better console yet...

it seems some friends here left. they have their reasons ofcourse its sad and i wouldnt want that happen ( not the hero feeling ) . The_Great_Samus and ibiza563, i was not here when you left so i have no idea about reasons but good luck and i wish you have good lives out there, take care and have fun

so this is my arrival here on gamespot. i checked 1-2 times before but now i'm back totally. thank you sohail1234 and moohmaaytah for fast PMs. in the end, i think its fun to be here : )