...with something you do excitingly, it becomes a real letdown in the end and though you were enjoying the process, just because of the result you start to dislike the whole...instead you find it in smaller things... Star Wars: Knights of the Old Republic VS Cave Story...

And so I beat Star Wars: Knights of the Old Republic II after some years...I think I started it 2007 or maybe even in the end of 2006, I'm not even sure about that but I just beat it 2 weeks ago. And when I beat the game, I felt really big letdown...so here is the reason;

After I beat KotOR, I beat it again because it was magnificent and became one of my favorite games. So with this huge hype, I started KotOR2... To be honest, I felt big letdown just at the beginning... what happened to the colors ? Why everything became green instead of blue ? Why everything became so big that covers the quarter of the screen ? And why my character runs like his upper body is sticked in air and different from lower body... I played abit and I liked breaking/creating stuff but those colors were overwhelming...I just couldn't play it after I saved Atton, so I stopped just at the beginning... after few weeks I tried it again and failed... few months later I started playing and actually was left the miner facility at last but in the second planet I left the game again...after few weeks later I managed to reach that second planet's halfway but I left the game in somewhere like facility for a long time...

And at last the last month, I decided to pick up my game from where its left... Now I forgot how was KotOR's screen and KotOR2's green huge HUD screen was not irritating me anymore. I was like hungry for KotOR so I started to play seriously this time... More I played, more I liked the game and at last I reached the point everything was under my control, at last I learned I can make my teammates Jedi and at last I learned KotOR2's true story... It was again magnificent, the story was so great, to be able to make my allies Jedi was absolutely amazing and everything in my actions or even dialogues were effecting something. I was again captivated by KotOR story and universe because the real story was just continuing from different view. It was so good that made me felt great again, I tried to make all my allies Jedi, built my characters according to that and I was enjoying the game ALOT...

And the mission before the last... I just couldn't believe what happened, was my game corrupted ? Did I do something wrong that skips some movies ? No, after my mission ended I found myself in a planet... Can you believe this ? A game that explains everything, a game that is known by its amazingly detailed texts leaves you without any explanation... You play a game, you are in a level that requires something, lets say you have to bomb a building. You set your bomb and you see the building explodes and you find yourself in another mission ? You don't see any other movie, you don't see any text that explains anything and boom you are in the last mission... I was shocked, felt dumb because I really couldn't realized what was going on... I really felt I was on the last mission but with thoughts of "how did I end up here ?" I couldn't believe that a game could be rushed this bad... All my efforts for my allies to make them Jedi, powerful were gone because in the last mission I was alone...

And after getting over the shock ( I checked the net for that, seriously ), I continued the game. I knew the game could end anytime now... Then I reached the end and beat the game but even the end was wrong... You know you can choose to be on dark side or light in Star Wars games ( at least Jedi Knight 3 and KotOR ) but its actually not dependent on a choice that is asked in the
end... Anyway, I beat the game as Obi Wan Kenobi, which is Light Side character ( I chose this name because there was really similar face, any KotOR2 player knows what I mean ) and I saw the end...

An end which hurted me so bad that I felt so empty... There is no spoiler about it so I'll say it, when you beat the game as Light Side, you see you are leaving that last planet with Ebon Hawk ( your ship ) and the credits appear... I was shocked again... I mean what was that ? This is disastrous... After playing the game for hours with joy, I felt so bad, it was definitely the biggest letdown in my games...and then I reload the game from the save in the last area and I saw the dark side end too... I had another arrow through my heart... Obsidian definitely became one of the bad companies in my black list...

On the other hand, at the same day or after one day, I dont remember exactly, I beat everyone's famous freeware game Cave Story... now that was something satisfying... This game is freeware, so you can download it anytime and can play it even on PSP.

Cave Story is truly amazing game for its genre. It is not just a platformer, it has really nice story and characters. Even 2D Castlevanias' dont have this many dialogues and depth. Basically, you have nothing in the beginning and you have no idea about anything... but as you advance in the game you get weapons, upgrades and learn the story. You can change your weapons for better versions later. But some of them are secret, at least you have to revisit some places... It has 3 different endings Bad,Normal, Good. Good ending is the hardest to get ofcourse while Bad Ending is just escaping... I saw both Bad and Normal endings and I'm planning to get Good ending too but I can say that even Normal ending was satisfying enough especially after KotOR2 disaster.

There is a game that was produced with some serious money and there is another game that was produced only by few people... Both of them are fun while playing to reach the end but the one which is satisfying is the one who was done with heart... not with people who rush to end their project... people who try to make a game for cash-in...

SW: KotOR2 is not a bad game overall, its actually great game but it has the worst ending a game can have... which kills all your enjoyment in one hit...

But I can easily recommend Cave Story to anyone, its nice, charming game and its just few clicks away...

So this is the new game people play on a website community, nice one I admit. TheLegendKnight tagged me for this, so I dont know the real expression I should show, well not important now. Ok lets do it to get over with it.

1- We put my father in hospital yesterday, so it was busy day and I stayed with him at the night. He has a tumor and soon he will have a brain surgery.

2- While I was 4-5 I spilled hot milk on me and I still have a burnt scar on my chest

3- Again while I was 5-6 I ran through a opal glassed door and I cut my arms and had operation. I still have big scars on my right arm because my arm was like totally open after all glass pour into my arm, operation was terrible I felt how did they remove the pieces from my arm when their anaesthetic affects disappeared while I was still in operation...

4- I jumped from 1 meter height towards our apartment door which is full glass and I break it with my head, luckily nothing happened.

5- I have asthma but its not a big deal now. I'm healthy enough except I can't run much

well, it was not a very pleasent blog maybe...

anyway, so here 5 people that werent tagged yet; moohmaaytah, sohail1234, ibiza563, iboo01, KittenToes

Fate is truly amazing thing when you think of it. If something will happen, it will happen even you change your decisions. You are free to choose your way, but your way ends up in one place if its the only way. Ofcourse there are many different ways too, your decision about something may have totally different destination than the other choice but sometimes whatever you choose there is only one event you'll see at the exact time. You may not believe fate, thats your belief but I do. Fate is written already but that doesn't mean you have no choice in life. Fate is like a book that tells the story advancement with your decisions on certain pages. In page two you see an option like, if you choose to walk go to page three, if you choose to go by bus go to page four. So you choose something and take a different path than other one but the writer of the book always knows what happens in the next page. Fate is already written but you have one chance to read because time cannot be bought back by anything. You encounter many choices but you can only choose one...be careful.

Today I had an accident...its funny thing. About one or two weeks since the snowy weather ended we go to work with our car, again. So I cant play PSP while going to work or returning to home. Today my father went outside directly and I followed him, said "so we are going without car" he said he wanted this way but I said "you are stumbling, is your right foot alright, lets take the car" he didnt want it at first but I persuaded him and went to garage to take the car while he was waiting in the street. I got the car and got him so we took the way we always used. Its a upward slant narrow way. Thanks to parked cars only one car can pass at a time. Anyway, the way is connected to another narrow way so its like T and we are coming from the bottom of T way. And at the same time a funeral car, which we find very funny thing when we discussed it later, comes from right to left of T way's upper part. We turn to right at the intersection then there is a left to leave that way. But since this T way is narrow cars should wait each other to not cause any trouble, crash or traffic. So you guess, our car and the funeral car crashed. Nothing happened to anyone but there is damage on both vehicles. I didnt care at that time, police came, made his analysis and told us to visit station for the results tomorrow. Its really troublesome but I just laugh at it.

Later on, while me and my father were walking to home, I said "fate is amazing thing" to my father and explained why. He out of blue chose to not take the car today even he was stumbling, on the other hand I insisted to take the car even I dont like to drive normally. Then in 5 minutes I crashed the car. I find it funny, these are just making my belief stronger.