I've always liked older guys. The first crush I remember having on a guy who wasn't in the movies was when I was nine or ten, and he was 20/21 years old. He and a bunch of his friends were over at my house for some reason or another (something to do with my older brother I think) and he started playing with my little brother. I got a bit jealous and joined in. It's funny really, because I'm terribly shy, but back then I was hugging the guy after the day I met him. He of course had a girlfriend his own age, but I didn't really understand that.

My earliest tv show character crush (that I recall) is the youngest guy in Bonanza. Yeah, that's right, I used to watch Bonanza when I was young and naive. This was sometime before the 20 year old, but I'm not sure how long. Then of course there was Han Solo, don't know how old I was though, probably around 9 or 10. Nowadays I'm not really attracted to Harrison Ford, even when he was younger.

I only started liking boys my own age when I was 12, and I never really had a crush on any of them. There are fewer males around my age I've ever truly liked my whole life than there are ones much older than me. Not that I've ever acted on those feelings (which would be really hard to accomplish as most of those men are actors I've fallen for and I haven't a clue where to find them, not that I've tried because I'm not a stalker, and not just because I don't have the money for it).

I'm not sure why I made a blog about this, but it was something I was thinking about the other day, and I had an urge to write it down. And share it I guess.