The reason I wrote that story is because yesterday I strangely imagined Syrus Truesdale and an anime character represented as me making love! I then imagined us both as mermen. We were in the ocean and we wrapped our fins around each other and kissed and felt on each others chest. As we rubbed our chest together I felt pleasent after that thought so I guess I may be becoming gay even though I still like girls. I felt if I really could do that then I would feel so alive and it would be the best thing ever.

I wrote that story to let out my feelings. I am such a sick person.