This girl- her name is Bella- and I have been friends practically our whole lives. She been there for me through a lot of hard times and I've been there for her. But now I feel totally helpless.
Recently, Bella's been diagnosed with leukemia. And she took the news really hard. Today after her doctor's appointment, I went to her dorm to see her and I found her laying on the floor with her wrists bleeding. Yes, she cut herself. I got her to the hospital quickly and that's where she is now. She's not hurt- she didn't cut deep enough- but she has to go to therapy now and she's starting chemo in a few days.
And an hour ago, when she woke up me and her got into a huge fight nd I said some really mean things. I wasn't thinking and I told her something completely horrible that I wish to god I didnt say....I said: "I wished you would've cut yourself deep enough. Then you would've died and I wouldn't have to see your stupid self ever again"
I didn't mean it! I was just so pissed at her for cutting herself and it just came out. I'm going back to see her in a few to apologize but now I'm just really, really heartbroken over her....
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And I have a best friend with stomach cancer. It's really hard on me and her daughter and it really sucks. I know what it's like.
*Sweater hugs*
Btw, I'm Abbie. I'm Jane's little sis. When Jane had cancer...TWICE, it was like hell for me, especially the second time which was this past year. Yeah she and I had some fights and stuff and I was incredibly depressed! And I was scared. I was really upset when Jane was being cyber-bullied and it drove her to thinking she wanted to let her cancer just take over and kill her. But she survived and beat the cancer both times. I think your friend will, too. Let her know you believe in her, and tell her she's gotta believe in herself.
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