Ok, there has been a change of plans. I am not leaving GS indefinatly, instead I'll be using this account on a computer in my school. The account info (Email+password) are saved on that computer and so, anyone can use my account, anytime at school. But for now, only 7 of my friends share it with me.

so after I announced I wasn't returning to GS...A BF2CU member was kind enough to Email me...here's the msg:
Tommy:

Hey bud I know I wasnt a member of the BF2CU very long
but you surely will be missed. I dont think I have
ever got the chance to game with you yet but I still
hope you will be around playing with people.

If you dont mind what exactly did happen that got you
life from GS?

Also if you want to add me to XFire my name is
unreal125 same as gamespot.

Later bud,
Tommy

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Thanks a lot Tommy, its really so thoughtful of you to
say that.
You know tommy, when someone takes a vow to accomplish
something no matter how stacked the odds are against
him, he must take his chances.
I'm not good at blending in with any group of people,
simply because I've lost my true personality wasting
hours and hours on forums like GS....I practically
know every single person in my school, yet none of
them are my close buddies...I try to think of myself
as a victim of stereotype, but I know subconsciously
that is a lie because:
1) some people just like me blended in perfectly and
fitted within the group they desired to be in
2) I can't keep trying to convince myself that the
reason  I can't fit in is because of the people around
me
My few close friends...about 3...those who I actually
made human beings out of; one of them came back from
migration, and the other I helped make a somewhat
respectable person amongst people....The one I helped
build from the start now thinks he's better than me
when we happen to be amongst friends HE was successful
in blending in with...I wasn't....He became the higher
person...I, I'm just a piece of trash like when  he
used to be in my place 3 years ago....The difference
is...I cared, he didn't....So here's my two options:
1) rebuild my relationships from scratch
2) get back at some people and get even then maybe I
can get a whole new life.....I don't see in either
life GS....I'm sorry if this was too long but this is
my truth...You're the first person I've ever opened up
to so much...I will be around to make a couple of sigs
and banners though....And BTW, I added you...

Thnx so much tommy..Stay around the union and belive
me I'm going to make you an officer once RUVOR18
actually stops slacking off and gets the server...The
union will be a booming success from that point and I
want you to be there as an officer...now, I have a
question...what's ur GS nick?!

amo!These are awesome!
I made the first 2: