That's it...there is no doubt left in my mind. The powers that be at Supernatural have officially lost their minds.

With a mean glare, shaking my head in utter disbelief, I stared at the screen as it was revealed that a beloved, multi-dimensional, fabulously played, Pagan god, was really.... get this..... an archangel all along.

Yup..that's right. We are supposed to believe that since his very first introduction, (Tall Tales was it?) the craftily played Trickster (Richard Speight whom I met and just loved!!) is really, Gabriel.

Now, isn't Gabriel the archangel supposedly protecting Chuck? (I may be wrong in my recollection...I'm not into the whole angel thing). But, if it is indeed good ol' Gabe protecting Chuck, when does he have time to cause so much mischief and mayhem in the human world?

That aside..... WTF?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

It was one thing for Kripke to bring back the ever so enigmatic Croatoan as an evil zombie-inducing plague of the future...but to try to tie in a pre-existing character who was solidified in the Pagan order of things as a Christian symbol all along is just beyond the realm of understanding. To hell with all this apocalypse stuff. This may actually be what gets me to stop watching the show.

As it is, the last episode was ALMOST bearable, and there were some entertaining tid-bits...but I'm ready to be rid of Bobby. Either get him out of the wheelchair (which doesn't seem to be serving any purpose other than being a receptacle of self-pity), or get over being a "broken" man...I'm tired of it.... Just gratuitous wallowing. Don't we already have enough of that with Dean and Sam???

*still shaking head in disappointment and horror* I used to ask what they did with "my" show.... now I just throw my arms up and throw in the towel and say, you can have the damn show. I just don't enjoy it any more.

So....first I want to make sure to send oodles of appreciation to the lovely Puma!!! What a delightful surprise it was finding a package from her in my mailbox the other day!!!

To help me get into the festive spirit of Halloween (a holiday I used to LOVE as a kid, but now, more or less trudge through since there are no children or parties where I live), Puma ever so kindly found a small, appropriate, and playful little decoration that is so tasteful it has earned a place on my door; suction-cupped to the window so that I can show some autumnal spirit!

Thoughtful? YES!!! Adorable? YES!!! Worth cherishing?? Silly question!!! YES!!! Of course!! It's from Puma!!!

AND...I feel it important to note that even though her birthday was on Oct. 18th, I have been remiss in sending out her birthday gift. I've had it for several weeks now...sitting on my desk..just waiting for me to find the appropriate mailing box and bubble wrap to ensure its safe arrival. Here's a few hints Puma...just to keep you guessing:

* It is hand made

* It is imported from Columbia, South America

* It is made with sustainable resources

* It's unique, one of a kind, and strikingly gorgeous

Soooooo--you have something fun to look forward to receiving in the next week or so. Though I am sorry for the delay.

And, there have been a few people who emailed me and wrote to me asking about how my health is. Well, I thank you for your interest and concern. But unfortunately things just seem to be getting worse, with more and more diagnoses and disorders for which there is no treatment.

On top of my mitral valve prolapse caused Dysautonomia (basically, my central nervous system [also known as the Autonomic Nervous System] does not function properly, so my body can't regulate its heartrate, blood pressure, digestion, hormones, sleep pattern, internal thermostat etc--which often leads to orthostatic intolerance and fainting for no good reason-and embarrassing locations-, palpitations or skipped heart beats and associated chest pains and pericardial spasms, low BP with the norm being 80/60, impaired memory and cognition, constant migraines, acid reflux/gerd that causes nodes on my vocal chords, insomnia, horrible sweats and severe chills not connected with outside temperature, MAJOR insomnia, and so many other issues I can't even name them all)...

I also have fibromyalgia which has been flaring up as of late causing enormous pain and aches in the soft tissue and muscles around major joints, making it feel like I have the flu every day.

Add to that chronic fatigue making it impossible to even function some days, and a mighty dollop of depression.

To make matters all the more difficult, I am non-drug responsive. Codeine is uselss...even 60mg of opium didn't make me groggy. Pain relievers are useless, and very little works to control the horrors of migraines. Needless to say, there's nothing out there that I've tried (and believe me...I've tried) that in anyway is helping with my insomnia. Sheer misery!

Thanks to Ehlers-Danlos Type 3 [Joint hypermobility] my muscles and tendons are overstretched due to a lack of properly formed collagen, and with the slightest bit of stress my joints will dislocate (primarily hips and shoulders), so I'm constantly popping them back in place, hoping to avoid pinching a nerve in the process.

But, recently I've learned a few MORE issues---because I don't have enough wrong with me...

Through and EMG (electro-magnetic stimulation) the neurologist has determined that I now have mild peripheral neuropathy for which there is no treatment, and it will only get worse in time.

My night vision has become so poor that I am considered night blind with no depth perception-therefore I don't drive in unfamiliar territory after dark....causing quite a bit of social isolation.

AND......AND....if this wasn't enough, I have discovered that I am positive (+) for Lyme Disease antibodies (meaning that I had an acute case of Lyme disease most likely as a child when I was living in the Boston area, but it went undiagnosed and untreated....leaving me with an enormous amount of side effects for which there is no treatment since it's not currently active).

So, let's see....out of everything I suffer from...ummm....there's no working treatment for ANY of them.

So, it's frustrating...I used to be so vivacious and adventurous. I travelled the world and explored so many cultures. I couldn't get enough of school or education and thrived on learning new things, experiencing whatever came my way to the very fullest. At the drop of a hat I would jet off to a new location, be it exotic, European, South American or even the desert of Israel.

And now, my world seems to be getting smaller and smaller. Most days I deal with it remarkably well. I know and understand my limitations and I TRY to come to terms with them and feel proud of any accomplishment, no matter how trivial it may seem to someone else.

But, for the most part, it's rather lonely. I can't currently work so I don't have a built it network of friends or co-workers, and my support system has dwindled to just my parents.

Please note...I'm not complaining. Merely stating how it is. I figure my TV.com friends who I've "known" for years who showed interest and concern in my current status would want to know the truth.

I don't need any pep-talks...life is as it is... But I do believe this will answer all those emails and inquiries into how I've been doing.

And with that....I wish you all well!!!!! I appreciate your interest. And again, thanks to Puma for my little goodies that always manage to brighten my day!!!

Much love to all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, September/October seems to have been a traumatic time--people lost beloved family members, a few folks suffered through the death of a pet (yes, I could've grouped that in with "family members") and some even observed the anniversary of a horrible experience and subsequent loss. I feel it important to mention all this so as not to negate the importance of grief.

But, with all the misery and heartache that is out there, it gives me great pleasure to be able to share happier news!

What is this news you ask?

I'm glad I piqued your interest.

Because someone we all know and love dearly is celebrating a birthday!!!!!

WOOHOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to the sweet, kind-hearted, thoughtful and beautiful... PUMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wish you nothing but health and happiness Shelly!!!!! With loads of love!! XOXO