finally, school`s out. life has been even harder. SL19 would be over here right now if she wasn`t...dead. i`ve been hanging out with a bunch of people, but nothing`s the same. I visited her grave yesterday and put a bunch of hibiscus flowers on top of it. I put a note I always write in a bottle, made the sign of the cross and left, crying hysterically. Her grave is a couple blocks away from the beach. It was around 6 so everyone was gone. I sat there looking out into the ocean and just thinking, "Why do people do this?". It bothers me still. Well anyway, I have to go. I will write in a couple more weeks,months.

xoxo

Wow. I haven't been on here in a while. It's almost been a year since we started the OT lounge. I see people like SLR and modelover have been posting. And it was no suprise to see the fablulous DE here. But what has been keeping me from here is SL19, a couple months ago, she died. Her cause of death you might ask? anorexia. She was desperate to be thin, even though she was. Life has been hard without a best friend. There's no one that can understand the many insiders we have had. But I feel that whoever called her fat, was just jealous. She was an abercrombie model and everyone wanted to be here. It's hard to remember all the laughs that we have had without crying. I'm gonna start now. I miss her so much.

Anyway, Friday my school is having a dance. I really cant wait. SL19 would have loved it. Her boyfriend wished he could have one last dance with her.

I wish we could have one more time together.

Could someone please get the OT lounge back? The mods need to get a life

Hope you guys have a good life. I'll make another blog in a couple of weeks.

xoxo

[*`]Jain

p.s. i'm on www.buddy4u.com now. =]

Today is my one year anniversery on TV.com. I thought I would still be on her with all my friends. I recently have been talking to ST.Jimmy and SLR about this place. Oh and IDK who told you that I was bringitoncheer and sl19 was cheergirl but they're wrong! I'm going to go..because there's nothing else to do on here. I'll write in a couple of weeks!!!

_XXX_