Many of you are wondering how I'm doing right now. So, let's just get this over with while I'm awake.

Yes, I did go to the doctors. I'm sure I said this before. Turns out I was born with a weak heart. And I didn't know up until now. They did a full x-ray of my heart just awhile back. Turns out there was a hole in my heart. Not a huge hole, just big enough to make hurt everytime it pumps and beats. And I'm sure how much your heart keep pumping and beating. Doctor gave me the x-ray. Geez, way to soften the mood doc. I would show you it, but my scanner gets figgity with x-rays apparantly. And, I don't want to gross you out.

And I'm not so clear to what the doctor said about my cough. Although, I'm pretty sure it's my heart that is causing my cough to have blood in them. Yep, a little unclear.

So, yeah, I'm typing this in bed. The doctor gave me some medication. It seems the only time I really get up is when nature calls, really.

To be honest, I feel worst. Every night, I can't sleep. I wake up sweating. My heart seems to hurts way too much. Although, like I said before, I'm still a-okay to give a smile.
To be honest, I am pretty bummed out the whole moderator thing. I just want to thank those who cared about my health more though. I already got a few hate messages who think I was a fail in moderator anyway. It came from those who recently added me when I was a moderator. Which I kinda was over time. I was never active. And this sick thing got in the way. And I really wanted to become one. I think overall that I didn't make a good impression at the beginning. Oh, forget it.

Thanks again for all your support. It's been tough, and I really appreciate that someone is supporting across the country, or wherever you guys and girls are.

Looks like my sickness got in the way of being a moderator. Maybe next time, huh?
And to those wondering my healt, no, it has completely worsen
Heart hurts even as it beats, breathing is tough, and overall, I feel horrible.
But I'm still alright to smile.

I said in my previous blog that "I'm back" but yeah I lied. Turns out I'm still really weak from the hospital, and I'll be taking short break from Gamespot for now. Keeping this blog short, since I could barely type right now. For now, I'll be hoping for the best of me. I'm not ready to die yet, especially not now. So, for now, I'll won't be on for a bit. Sorry, and thanks for the heartwarming comments from the last blog. It means a lot. Thanks.