So I have been formally accepted to the U of O now, and I have also put in a request to live in the residency halls. I'm pretty excited about that.

So the weirest thing happened with the guy I was dating. He said he didn't want to be in a relationship and I was really really really really broken up about it. But then I went over to his house (he's a great guy and I really wanted to still be friends with him) and it was almost like nothing had changed. I even asked him what kind of relationship he wasn't ready for (he said he wasn't ready to be in a relationship when he broke up with me) and he said that he didn't know. He also feed me all these lies about turning 18 soon and needing to find a job and a place to live and just growing up and being respoinsible and all that and he hasn't done any of that. So I'm upset about that, but also because I just really miss him. He doesn't call me as much and he rarely ever has time for me and well...I'm pathetic. Really, I am. And I know it. But he's all I think about and well...yeah. He also said that next year I was going to go away to college and he was going to be staying here, but it's only a three hour drive and I'd be home on weekends and holidays and...so finally he said that he wasn't happy with our relationship. So I locked myself in my room for about the entire weekend and cried. And then I felt so much better and I talked to him and...yeah. That really is all a mess. I don't know what to do about any of this. Ahhh... well I have two papers to write, a book to read and a whole bunch of stuff to do for the Mock Trials. So, until next time!

~Whatsername007~

Actually they aren't really woes at all. I have been so happy lately, and it all has to do with this new boyfriend. I still have to tell my parents about us...and that is going to be awkward. But I'm okay with that. Maybe I can get him to do that with me. Anyways...I really don't have anything to say...oh, that's a lie. I got accepted to the University of Oregon last week. It is so exciting! Next year I'll be going to college. Of course I'll be away from home...my family...my friends...my boyfriend...and my cat. But Eugene is only a three hour drive away from my house, so that's good. Although they are so limited parking wise I may not get my car and may have to take the train or something. That would not be fun. Oh well. Life is good. Despite my stressful schedule and limited amount of time I have to do anything. It's all good.

So I've been friends with this guy for a long time, and in the last couple of months I began to well...like him. I already knew that he liked me (he has for a long time) and so it isn't so awkward. But as of lately it has just reached the point where I feel like we are together, like as a couple, even though it isn't official. When I'm not with him I'm thinking about him, and when I am with him I am just so happy...practically blissful. I love to just be close to him. When he holds me I feel like everything is right in the world. I'm not sure if this is just my more romanticised artistic side coming out or if...well, if I love him. We are pretty much opposites, but well...that makes us perfect. We fit together so easily. Ahh...I am just so happy. I can't wait until I see him again. Until then I will continue...well, to do my normal things. whatever those are