Well Last night (Saturday 18 of Feb) I got into a fight with my stepfather and he is refusing to let me have his tax estimates for 2005 so I cannot fill out Financial aid for college unless I have this.

I got so upset I couldn't even write straight, talk right or stop shaking. If I can't get it then I will have to take out a huge bankloan to spread the Gospel.

I was listening to In Touch with Charles Stanley last night and obviously the LORD had a reason for him to keep repeating this passage:

"For I know the plans I have for you" declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and to not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart"----Jeremiah 29:11-13

And earlier before this happened I wrote this:

"Know therefore that the LORD your God is God; he is the faithful God, keeping his covenant of love for a thousand generations of those who love him and keep his commands"-----Deuteronomy 7:9

The next part was regarding ones who hate him.

I cried my eyes out going down the road thinking about not being able to do the Will God put in my heart. That right there hurts more than being hurt physically. The sole idea of not fulfilling my will killed me last night to think of. I'd be a total failure if I cannot fulfill this will.

Even though my stepfather is trying to stop me from spreading the Word (ever notice how an unsaved person or unbeliever has Satan-like qualities) I know I'll be upholded in the end and the ones who come up against me will get their payment.

Always know once Satan knows about a plan the LORD has for you. Be on a lookout! Satan will put every person, every family member, every friend who are unbelievers or unsaved in your path to bring you down.

God Bless

Chris