Hey everyone, how are ya? I'm alright today, been kinda irritated over the last few days but over different things. It's been a few days since I've had a new blog written

Yesterday it was with the doctor and it started before I even went. When I did see him, he gave me more insulin and the fast acting one he wanted me on and went on about how he's done his part, I have to try and do something which let me know that he doesn't think I'm trying. I am.....but there's not a whole hell of a lot I can do when I'm still trying to figure out how the hell I'm even gonna pay for the insulin I've been taking for the last four years now. (which led to what I did today, that I'll get to in a minute). Then my mom is all asking me where all my money is going......I have money? I'd like to know where it is too. cause the last check I got from work was for only $126 dollars...and that's for two weeks. I can't do sh!t with that. So anyway the doc gave me more of the Lantus (insulin I've been taking for 4 years ) and the fast acting one he wanted me on. At least I was honest with him and told him that I couldn't afford it though I told him when he gave me the prescrip last month. Why the hell no one listens to me I'll never figure out......speaking of which I'm tired of hearing how much something can save my life when I already know and can't do sh!t to get it anyway. Like telling me that will make things easier

So continuing with yesterday, I had to call unemployment also which is running out and I haven't found out yet if I can get an extension or not. I called 'em, amazingly didn't have to wait half my life for a circuit to answer the damn phone, answered all their questions and what not, confirmed that it was all correct, ONLY to get the reply..................................get this and tellme if it makes sense..................................."Your certification has been accepted, but we cannot issue a check at this time. Please call {insert what ever number they told me here] and find out why". So I call that ONLY to find out that the office is closed...... :/ it's idiots like this that make me wanna bash my head into a wall repeatedly. It does burn 150 calories an hour anyway.

The events above lead me to today. I went to this family medicaid (I forget the exact name) place today to apply for medicaid. (which I told the doc what I was trying to do while he decided to tell me that i'm not trying) The last thing I wanted to do was sit there today but amazingly the wait wasn't bad. I thought I'd be there till dinner and was ready to bring a bag lunch with me. Anyway the program I applied for was on "freeze" meaning they weren't enrolling anyone at the time, so they were kind enough to tell me about CareFirst Plus which is the same thing as medicaid. I get all my doc's visits and prescrips and hopefully vision and dental but if not I'll just be happy to not have to figure out how I'm paying for insulin. This CareFirst too was also less of a pain in the a$$ to fill out then the first form....the first one was an entire friggin' book.

and the amusement ended at the post office when I was waiting in this uber long line just to buy stamps (my mom had added some of her mail as well, which never got mailed out today). I didn't feel like waiting in the line either..it was rediculous and going out the door like today was the last day to get any and all boxes mailed out. Though I don't do anything, I have better things to do then wait to mail out some stupid letters. I did get my CareFirst app mailed out though so everything's alright I guess.

Everyone is home for Winter Break.....I hate winter break at my house. I hate the fact that everyone's home and if I go somewhere I get 20 questions about where I'm going. They basically add to the fact that I don't wanna exist....really didn't want to yesterday, but of course was told why I should and I think today I do wanna exist.

and I may not write another blog for another week or so depending on what happens, if anything happens, so I'm just gonna say now that my birthday is Saturday. Not sure if I'm really looking forward to it or not. I'll decide by Saturday maybe.

What girlscout cookie are you?
You Are Peanut Butter Sandwiches / Do-si-dos
You are easy going and naturally happy. You don't need a lot to make you smile.
You genuinely care about people and are a great friend. You're always doing your best to make the world a better place.

Even though there isn't an immature bone in your body, you still are like a big kid sometimes.
Why make life complicated when the best parts are actually quite simple? You enjoy the small joys of life.

yep that pretty much fits me