Believe me...I don't ever really write things like this, especially in a blog, but for me this is the only place I can think of to pour my heart out. Today, at least for me, is the hardest day since my cousin got shot and killed this past Christmas....my most favorite artist (and I could care less who the hell knows!) has died.....

Words can't even described how hard I've been ballin', and stll ballin' (even as I wiite this I have to continually stop and pause in-between tears). I know there are those that will no doubt talk **** about him and make fun of it, but anybody that is a true fan will know in there heart where I'm coming from when I say I am completely devastated. I felt sobad about hearing Farrah Fawcett pass away today, but the thing is that everyone knew she was fighting with cancer....but this...this for me ain't right (either death).

When my dad came and told me I didn't believe it. The first thing that came out of my mouth was "yo, daddy that ain't even funny...play like that''...but when my dad said 'look I heard this on ESPN, maybe you better turn to something like CNN or something''. And when I did, my heart just dropped....and it's been gone ever since.

*sigh*....I don't really have much else to say, guess I'm just venting a broken heart.

My heart and prayers goes out to all of the Jackson family (his children included) as I know that they probably feel a thousand times worse.

...and for a special shoutout to you Michael: I will ALWAYS love you and your music and God knows you'll be missed....you are the greatest to me since I was 2 until my 26thyear (and God willing, beyond)of living on the Earth...I will miss you sooo damn much!

Micheal J. Jackson (1958-2009)

I have to say Saturday was any other normal day, a normal morning of me just chilling. I had actually bought a couple of things off of Ebay--but hadn't receive a correct total--and was waiting for a response from the seller. It was really by accident that I decided to check up on my email and see if I got a response.

As I was just kinda glazing over the message titles in my inbox (not reay givin' to much attention), I saw something from Playstation.com.....low and behold, it was the much sought-after Home beta invitation!!! I sat there for a moment thinking 'is this really what I see???'--and I almost freaked when I realized it had came in my inbox Friday (had checked my emails earlier Friday but not anymore for the rest of that evening)--lol, you all should have seen me damn near panicing, as I fumbled to find my controller (or BD remote...can't remember which one I reach for first) just so I could log in and use the code. I was so paranoid that the code would somehow void out if I didn't immediately put it in, LOL

I think I spent the better part of the day being dumbfounded that I even got the invite that I just well resigned to fact I would be invited in until the open beta. It seems like it's coming along nicely--I was pleasantly surprise to see the number of people in there that I did. 

Anybody else get in recently? 

Well normally, I don't DO the "blog thing" but I've encountered something that I just feel like speaking on.

If you're a PS3 owner, you've probably no doubt heard of the 2.40 firmware situation that's been going on as of late. If you haven't, lemme give you a brief run on it: Sony released (I believe around July 2) the new 2.40 firmware that suppose to add optional in-game music (for games that support it, that is), and what's called a "trophy" system (that too, for game that support it), and I think along w/ adding a clock--kinda like the PSP has it--just to name a few of the features that I know of (I didn't get to download, so I don't know of any other features just yet, beside in-game messaging--I think).

Apparently, this has been stuff that many PS3 owners have been wanting for some time and Sony listened.

Fast-forward to, hmm, I'd say around July 2, apparently reports had started to come out about some users possibly experiencing bricking of their systems--not a lot of users, mind you, but clearly enough for Sony to make a decision to temporarily pull the firmware. this was I assume as of later that 2nd of July, which was stated (and posted up) on the official Playstation blog site (if you're curious to see how it insanely unfolds, here's the link: http://blog.us.playstation.com/2008/07/02/firmware-v240-status/ ).

.....can we say, "all hell broke loose"??

Because that's exactly what happened. So why, you may ask, does this bug the hell out of me?? Simple really, what pissed me off was the vast number of retardedly immature post of people whinning to Sony about 'what's taking you guys so long?', 'I WANT 2.40 NOW, SONY'.....blah, blah, blah--I can honestly say the list truly goes on. Don't get me wrong, my heart geniunely went out to the few that honestly started having issue w/ their system after they installed 2.40--and for those people to voice there opinion is totally understandable. But a vast majority of these numbnuts that were mainly complaining was the ones that didn't have the chance to download it before it was taken off the server! What baffled me the most however, is that most of these fools actually expected--over this lovely 4th of July extended weekend--that Sony would just hurry up and fix it, then slap it back on the server or give them a play-by-play update of their findings.....must be nice living in PerfectLand? Hmm...well, back in 'real-world', uh, it's called combing through hundreds of codes trying to figure out the possible culprit. In 'real-world', it's called these guys and girls that bust their asses on writing codes M-F have 'real lives' outside of their job (like any of us 'working' grown folk do...) and they earned the right to spend it w/ family and friends on the 4th of July.

I mean, really, the nerve of some of these people to me just seemed unreal.....it's like all I keep thinking--at least until I finally got fed up and voiced my 2 cents (won't tell y'all my blog name juust yet, LOL, but trust I'll give you hint that I didn't start until after 1627...)--was 'do most of these KIDS (even if all of them weren't they sure as hell were acting the part) even understand what goes into pulling a program together?'. Clearly, not--because if they did, they'd know that these people (developers and programmers) bust their asses to make sure they come up with a quality product. Are there times when things don't work out as planned?.....of course! Even no matter how much something is thoroughly tested it's not abnormal for something to still (freakishly) pop and cause issue. Programming is never a 100% sure thing and it's naive to even think that way. What's even more naive is that if these same people actually thought the problem would be 'magically' solved over the weekend. Sony has definitely got more than their leftover barbeque on their plates come Monday.....so we'll see (I pray for the ones that's gotta come back and read all that come Monday morning....yikes!).

But seriously still, this whole rabid fanboy/fangirl counterculture of gamers have got to stop.....it's really making the rest of us logical (and maybe sometimes sane, LOL) gamers look extremely bad.....