A text I sent to one of my best friends earlier today. I felt it needed to be shared even though I doubt many will understand exactly what I mean.

"I think the worst thing a human can feel is helplessness. And the worst form of helplessness is knowing that what you stand for is true to the very foundation of your soul, and not only does no one believe you, but they condemn and consider you crazy. That is what we face. And yet people consider us heartless and unsympathetic, when if we were to care about anything more we would be utterly destroyed. It would be so easy to give up hope when so many confuse it with dependence, and yet we search, and gather, and learn, and feel, and know, in the name of selfishness, when nothing could be more truly selfless than leading those who live by example."

This is just the tip of the iceberg:

I am a 20 year old, self supported, gay working, senior in college. I don't believe that everyone is equal. Grey is my favorite color. I prefer cold weather over warm weather. I love swimming. I don't think anything I've ever experienced feels better than a scalding hot shower. I am very picky about my friends. I believe that honestly is always the best policy even if hurts someone's feelings. I don't believe in religion, or God, but I believe that everyone has a soul, and that everyone is connected. I could not live without music. I love non-homophobic straight men. I am a huge dork, but talking to me you would never know unless you are one too. I have no interest in any sport what so ever. I go through phases were I become obsessed with one ridiculously nerdy thing. I'm funny. I wish I never had to wear anything but jean shorts and T-shirts. Nothing is funnier to me than when someone hurts themselves, particularly by tripping and falling. I love talking on AIM, and on the phone. I am an introvert with extremely extroverted tendencies. I think funny little quirky things that happen in drama TV shows and movies are much funnier than anything in any comedy I have ever seen. I associate things to the way they smell. I enjoy precipitation. I refer to men and women as boys and girls because I like the way the words sound better. I am not embarrassed about talking about anything, to anyone, and I love people that feel the same way. I love the four traditional elements in all of their every day applications. I'm almost as attracted to flamers as I am to women. My goal in life is to raise awesome babies. I love Disney animated movies, still to this day, and my love for them will never end. Sleeping in a room that is more than 70 degrees is unacceptable, as is waking up before 10am for any reason. I don't think friends with benefits or casual sex can EVER be what they are meant to be, and therefore hope to never partake in either. I like glow in the dark stars, and real ones too. I carry around a water bottle like a baby bottle as a security blanket, and because I'm always thirsty. I love multi-colored sharpies. I sleep with one completely flat pillow. I still to this day love coloring, and do it regularly. I have very little tolerance for irrationality. Seeing gay couples in public makes me happy. I am a closet hippie. I whole heartedly believe that the end of our race and/or our planet will be completely our fault. I am an internet pirate. I believe that one person can change the world. I'm sweet at life. I love my family, even though most of them are crazy. My name is Harry Peter, yes that's right, a synonym for Hairy Penis and easily confused with Harry Potter, and I'm proud.

My favorite movies are: V for Vendetta, Elizabethtown, Life as a House, The Family Stone, and The Pursuit of Happyness

My favorite disney cartoons (which yes, deserve their own category) are: Aladdin, Hercules, Mulan, The Little Mermaid, and The Lion King.

My favorite songs are: "Dig" by Incubus, "Iris" by Goo Goo Dolls, "Hanging by a Moment" by Lifehouse, "The First of Me" by Hoobstank, and "No Such Thing" by John Mayer.

My Favorite books are: His Dark Materials Trilogy, The Inheritance Series, The Old Kingdom Trilogy, Anthem, and The Alchemist.

My Favorite live action TV shows are: The Osbournes, Heroes, Scrubs, House, and Sex and the City.

My Favorite animated TV shows are: Bleach, Naruto, Dragonball Z, and Avatar.

This is my favorite thing that I have ever written, I wrote it when I was 17:

I think that within the thousands of ways you can categorize people, there are really only two kinds, ones who get it, and ones who don't. For whatever reason, most don't. Those who do, know and accept who they are, who they will be, what they are meant to do, and strive to achieve it. Through struggle, and confusion most find it, but for some it takes a life time. The select few, who are forced into realization at a young age are able to put more focus on others, they learn to observe, and to see things that others don't. With the power of observation comes the power of manipulation, whether it be good or bad, you have to know how something works to change it. Some are too intrigued by power and use these things to hurt others and to get only what they want for themselves. Some are overwhelmed by what they see and withdraw from the world thinking that no one person can change anything. The remaining few are those who truly make a difference, only by doing what they know they were meant to. Some see this is as foolish, idealistic, and often unrealistic, but it isn't, because people have so much more power than they realize. Regardless of beliefs, it is a fact that one person can change the world, and it is astonishing how many people purposely ignore this fact.

This is my favorite quote, which happens to be like 2 pages long:

For the word "We" must never be spoken, save by one's choice and as a second thought. This word must never be placed first within man's soul, else it becomes a monster, the root of all evils on earth, the root of man's torture by men, and of an unspeakable lie.

The word "We" is as lime poured over men, which sets and hardens them to stone, and crushes all beneath it, and that which is white and that which is black are lost equally in the grey of it. It is the word by which the depraved steal the virtue of the good, by which the weak steal the might of the strong, by which the fools steal the wisdom of the sages.

What is my soul if all hands, even the unclean can reach into it? What is my wisdom, if even the fools can dictate to me? What is my freedom, if all creatures, even the botched and the impotent, are my masters? What is my life, if I am but to bow, to agree and to obey?

But I am done with this creed of corruption.

I am done with the monster of "We," the word of serfdom, of plunder, of misery, falsehood and shame.

And now I see the face of god, and I raise this god over the earth, this god whom men have sought since men came into being, this god who will grant them joy and peace and pride.

This god, this one word:

"I."

-Ayn Rand - Anthem

Thats all for now folks. I wonder if anyone will actually read all of this nonsense. =p

Hello again folks, sorry it's been so long, things just aren't annoying me that much lately...pfff, but forseriously its more like I just don't remember because they are generally so dumb they aren't worth remembering. But this dirty hoe, was shockingly just dumb enough to remember. So, I'm at my cousins dorm and there are people over and we're having fun, and then these three dirtyskankyhoes arrive. And let me just say, they weren't eveclan that dirty, they were just SO much dumber than the rest of us, that you could feel the atmosphere become less intelligent as they stepped over the threshold. They talked about nothing BUT:

• Having sex.
• Making out with each other.
• Having sex.
• How drunk they are.
• How funny everything is.
• How awesome their "lower back tattoo's" are.

Also Known as:

• I DIDN'T GET ENOUGH ATTENTION AS A CHILD AND NOW I NEED TO UNNECESSARILY SEEK IT OUT EVERYWHERE I GO BY IRRITATING EVERYONE WITH AN IQ OVER 12 WITH MY AWEOMSLY SCREECHING VOICE AND MY INCESSANT TALKING OF HOW MUCH SEX I HAVE.

In conclusion, I understand and try to sympathize with the fact that stupid people don't always know that they are stupid, but everyone knows when something they say is something they actually mean and care about, or something they are saying only because you are looking for a specific reaction from someone else. The world would be a much better place if people only said what they meant, and only meant what they said, regardless of the consequences or the thoughts of others, I understand being smart enough to understand this and to act on it is difficult, but I promise you'll find others. Word.

OH, and one last thing, lower back tattoos are ALWAYS trashy, sorry.