I think I might have it. When I was in elementary school, I had no problems with social activities, I could do anything without getting nervous, and if someone who didn't like me was in my class, it didn't bother me much. Then when I started Junior High I got shyer by the year, and now I'm almost half way through high school and it just keeps getting worse. I don't even like making a phone call, because I get nervous when someone other than the person I'm intending to call picks up, my throat always get's all blocked up just to say "Here" when attendance is taken, I'm afraid to ring friend's doorbells, so if I wanna hang out with someone all I can hope for is they're online or come get me themselves, and meeting parents is something I absolutely dread, and making plans is something i'm extremely uncomfortable with, unless I've known the person for awhile, hence why one of my relationships failed. I want to just get over it... I've never been that apprehensive about school starting any other year, but now I'm so paranoid that i'll be alone in my classes, all my friends will have different lunch periods as me, the 2 people I can't stand will be in classes with me, all that kind of stuff. And school starts in 11 days. I just wanna start summer over again... Ugh

My day was so awesome. I went to my friend Chrissy's house, and when we walked up to the store, behind there was my old elementary school (I went there until 4th grade, when Milford built a bunch of new schools, so yeah.) and we saw that the gate to playground was open, it was amazing. Being on the playground again, remembering being a kid, when everything was so simple. I wish I knew how awesome my life was then. Yet another reason why I need a time machine.

Well, how is everyone? I lost touch with a lot of my friends on here.

Currently Listening:
Strawberry Fields Forever - The Beatles.

I guess I never got around to "updating this more often" haha. Plus when I finally get around to updating there are way too many things to share that I can fit in one little blog post. But, here we go. School has been going okay for me. My grades still suck, but not as bad as last year.
But it still scares me, that College is in a few years and I still can't find hardly any interests of what I want to do in my future life, and the fact that I don't do any extra-curricular activities doesn't help...Any advice people.

Currently Listening:
Jack & Diane - John Mellancamp.

God I love that song. Gotta love 80's.

Please leave a comment, I want to know how you all are doing.