Nothing like sleeping until noon on a holiday, getting to see cousins I never get to see, Holiday Jones and closer to Christmas. I'm really in the holiday spirit at the moment.

Currently listening: "Try And Love Again" - The Eagles.

Things are getting better, I'm liking this year a lot more than last. Also, I've discovered the light of That 70's Show and the hotness of Ashton Kutcher. Anyways, I guess I'll go ahead and talk about the awesomness of Christmas. Anyone have the new iPod? It's been a long time since I've been in the Christmas spirit, probably because the public makes it so annoying, and starts advertising months ahead of time. However, I haven't been noticing it as much this year. Well.. yeah.

I think I might have it. When I was in elementary school, I had no problems with social activities, I could do anything without getting nervous, and if someone who didn't like me was in my class, it didn't bother me much. Then when I started Junior High I got shyer by the year, and now I'm almost half way through high school and it just keeps getting worse. I don't even like making a phone call, because I get nervous when someone other than the person I'm intending to call picks up, my throat always get's all blocked up just to say "Here" when attendance is taken, I'm afraid to ring friend's doorbells, so if I wanna hang out with someone all I can hope for is they're online or come get me themselves, and meeting parents is something I absolutely dread, and making plans is something i'm extremely uncomfortable with, unless I've known the person for awhile, hence why one of my relationships failed. I want to just get over it... I've never been that apprehensive about school starting any other year, but now I'm so paranoid that i'll be alone in my classes, all my friends will have different lunch periods as me, the 2 people I can't stand will be in classes with me, all that kind of stuff. And school starts in 11 days. I just wanna start summer over again... Ugh