lately i just feel so lonely and that my life is boring and i hate it.
i started college in september 08 i do enjoy it and feel as though i need it to carry on with the rest of my life aka uni and career
i dont really have close friends just friends, i do have some one who i consider my best friend but we still arent that close
i feel as though my life living where i live is not what i want
i really cant wait to just move out and experience more
im only 16 but cnt wait to start living my life
i see photos of people my age on facebook and they all seem to have much more fun than i do
i just dont know what to do to stop feeling like this!!

11 days left

so everyone has started signing year books today, it took me all day to write 10 pages in my friends book and i was crying by the end of it, she sent me a text when she had read it and said she had choked up

dunno if you have all seen the pics from the james lafferty charity game yet but im seriously love them, jackson is even more cute when he is with james. and how hot did james look. i so wish i could have been there but i think it would have cost a fortune and i really can't miss school rite now. Joy's version of the national anthem was so good i love her so much i think im just as obssessed with her than i am OTH. while i was sat in science i was just zoneing out and i must have been thinking about joy because i just caught a glimse of a poster of the solar system and instead of reading jupiter i read it joypiter lol i had a little chuckle to my self and my friend gave me a weird look

i really can't wait to read what people will write in my book, i need to take it tomorrow cos i 4got it today. everyone was just being really giggly today, you can totally tell were leaving in 2 weeks all anyone wants to do is just sit and reminise and laugh!

i really dont know what else to say i just wanted to blog for some reason

anyway bye guys xoxox

hey

1 month as of yesterday = last day of school & prom

seriously excited, no more stupid school, that stage of my life is done, i can leave those immature, stuck up people behind. there was a time when i thought they were my friends, now i cant wait to get away from them. i rememeber a time when i used to love school, i almost feel stupid for enjoying myself with those people who have just forgetten me and changed into people i dont even care about anymore.

god, reading that makes me sound like a right loner, i do have some people who i actually care about enough to go to school and still have a laugh with, but these people were the ones i never used to spend time with, i do ask myself sometimes why i wasn't close with these people sooner.

im definatly looking forward to the next part of my life, i just want the next 5 years to go slower cos i think these will be brill.

the editor of the local paper is coming into school on thursday to talk to students who are intersted on journalism, so far im the only one i know who is going, but hopefully it will be ok and helpful to me.

One Tree Hill on tonight ( 2morrow 4 me) but cant wait, ive been having withdrawl symptoms. i was going to get the season 5 DVDs at the weekend and id seen it advertised for £25, i went in to a different shop and it was £35 , so i guess i'll just wait till i can get to the other shop.

right now im in one of those moods to just put on a sad film and cry, actually i might put OTH on later, i love the episode on the second season the one b4 the final were they are all reading out their english finals, that always makes me cry. ive been listening to that song that plays when haley and lucas say goodbye to each other in new york loads lately, if you dont have it you should defo download it, its called Can you sleep by Courtney jaye.

today was quite good, its always good when you have double textiles

me and my friend just sit and laugh about nothing and draw designs. im gonna miss her, she's one of those i wish i had been closer with sooner i lover her to bits.

the whole year group has been asked to stop talking about prom during lessons, thats all we ever talk about lol, apparently its getting in the way of " education time".

anyway thats all. bye xox