Why the hell do I have to feel bad about telling things I do. I just want to have fun with friends that I haven't seen is so long. Why is it my problem that you had a thing with that friend. I just want t o chill and have a good time, but no I can't. I can't have a good time with drinking or anything that we do, because I always have to think about what you think and what you feel. I'm getting very depressed about all the things that have been going on and I don't know if I can handle it. I have my problems that I have to deal with, even though they might be has much, but I still have **** that goes through my mind that **** with it and I don't know if I can still handle your **** too. I feel that I can't be the same person around you and I can't listen to the same music without you breaking down. Why can't I have my friend back? I want the one that was fun and chill to hang out with. It kills me that I have to see the person I love go threw this **** and i can't help. I want you to get over the **** that has happened to you so we can have the good times that we had before, but I know that won't happen, since what happened to you is something I have never gone threw. I also want to be able to hangout with the friend(s) that give you the emotional feeling that you get, since they are my friends too and I wish that I didn't feel so bad about doing it. Why can't I just hang out with you or them with out feeling bad? Why did this have to happen? I want things to go back to the way things were. I can't go a day without thinking about the things that WE have gone through. Speaking of that I just listen to Zao- An Angle Without Wings and I couldn't help but cry over the fact of what you did and what I feel about you and What you have said and shown me. I didn't even want to tell you want I was going to do, since I knew what it was going to do to you. See that's what I mean, I just want to be able to talk the **** to you and not feel as if I bring something up that will **** up the night. I just want to be able to say whatever and not seem as if I'm being a ultra-dick. Why can't I bring up movie quotes without you getting all but hurt? Why can't I not buy you beer without you getting all butt hurt out it.
All I want is my friend back.
Why can't I have that?
