I need somewhere where there is no ties to any of my friends in the real life to get this off my chest. And before any of this is said, yes I am having a pity party. Over the past week or so I met a girl that we just seemed to click, something I haven't had pretty much ever, and after getting close too fast she just wants to be friends. She does have things about former relationships that haunt her, and the fact she goes off to basic for the national guard in a few months for nearly a year doesn't help either. I understand these and I don't want to drag up things that hurt her to say, but to be honest I think that a positive relationship could only help in the end. I will miss being close to her, but I feel the need to honor her decision and keep at arms length until she feels she can get close again. Just talking about all this makes be overly sentimental, which is strange for me having the tendencies of a stoic, I just wish I could adopt the heart of a stoic and no longer feel like I am missing an opportunity and seeing someone I have truly come to care for walk away. I know for as short a time as this I shouldn't have such strong feelings, but lo and behold here they are and I need to talk about them in a place that they can do her no harm. Honestly I would really like to come to see this all as selfish but I guess as selfish as it is I just have a hard time letting go

Strange when I think rescue ranger I think an old children's cartoon. lol. But enough of that in the words of my former war of life (a.k.a. a WoW junkie) I just dinged. I have been at the dreaded level 20 for quite some time now and what do they reward me with? The title of some cartoon woodland creature. I find that funny truly. At least a metal slime is worth a second glance, but oh well. On another not I go on winter break next week and I've pretty much flunked myself out of 2 classes by beinging sick so often this semester. I know it is my responsibility to catch up on work I miss but with the pace my math and argumentation classes move at, making up one day in and of itself would thoroughly suck. But enough of the complaining, in the end with the amount of courses I will end up taking before it is all said and done it shouldn't hurt my gpa in an overly noticable way, especially after nearly getting this 2 year degree I'm planning on changing majors anyway.

Just got that emblem. To be honest I do like older games and all but they make me seem like an old timer. I have only been gaming since 98 and my oldest game was only made two years before that. I appreciate the knowledge that the site still gives out emblems but come on. I feel like Squall in FFVIII when some kid calls him sir and he answers with something like "I'm only 17."