dude wow, that sounds really rough dose your mom really hate you, have you told her every thing your feeling? Is your dad some one you can talk to? I don't know what to say man, i'm really sorry.

that does sound really rough don't hurt yourself please! u'll be able to find any one of you GS friends to talk to maybe you could also try a hot line it may help? i don't know really how to fix it but talking and letting people know makes you feel a whole lot better

Man..from what you told me. I knew what I had to do if I was in your situation. You should talk with her and ask why she hates you and your only her son .. If she doesn't want you in her house I don't know .. Your dad .. talk with him. I'm really sorry for your friend, I don't know what I would do if mine passed away.
Suicide isn't the way... I think this is everything I can tell you to do.

First...welcome back
Your mom hates you!?...I agree with Primo, you should have a nice talk with her

Thank all you guys for your comments and I didn't like really ask her if she hates me and her and my dad are divoriced, and he doesn't bother with me either I haven't seen him in over 9 years so truly don't have anyone to talk to about this but say maybe a couple of friends lol and my day was crap today! everywhere I went I had nothing but BS kicked in my face! Plus my school is really g@*! I had a hall pass, just minding my business and I dunno if the security guard was on her period or not but she just started YELLING at me for no apparent reason whatsoever, I mean come ON, just leave me be then they say I was wrong and disrepectful, PUH-HESE! Then I got my camera taken, I can't use my cell phone, my EX-girlfriend keeps on teasing me ( because her butt has gotten is so BIG lolz), I lost my monthly subway AND BUS pass, and to top it all off I don't have enough money for Grand Theft Auto IV or Metal Gear Solid 4, I just have the worst luck I suppose

Don't be so hard on yourself. You are just in a rough situation right now, things will start to look up before you know it. I know you are guy and all, but try crying sometimes it helps to let all your emotions out you might end up feeling better who knows. But if that is to girly for you, just don't let everything get to you or else you could have a major breakdown and that is not good. But keep us posted on how things are going.

Dude i'm really sorry to hear all of that. It must be really tough on you, but you shouldn't blame yourself i'm sure your friend would not want you to feel guilty or upset or whatever. Just try and be happy for your friends sake. So try and smile pal

Sorry to hear about that man. And welcome back.

Yeah, thanks everyone for backing me up, I got things squared away with my mother she said when she called me a "mistake" it was only a joke and all the times I got into trouble was tough love, I guess. My dad still doesn't support me and I can't never get ahold of him so we can have a talk face-to-face I told my mother she can't teach how to be a "man" only he can but I think my brother is the best role model in opinion by far he really appreciates all the things I do best, phew it's been a tough week it feels like forever but thank goddness, it's all over, I got my money for GTA IV, and I'm really patching all my problems up with this girl I like so much, so lately I've been having fun the best I can, I still mourn my friend Lessie, but I know she watching in a better place and she woulda told me the exact same thing, not to worry and don't give your life up over something stupid, but still I'm glad to be back and thank all you guys again and again and AGAIN for supporting me, you'll hear from me again very soon, now that I'm better and feeling fine

I feel for you, games make all my problems go away, GTA should help