It's2 in the morning and I can't sleep. Guess why... Boys. It's always because of a boy! And it's always about the same one! (Damn boy) So, what did Daniel do this time? ...He went to a birthday on thebeach today. It was a cousin of a friend of ours, oh and by the way, the birthday girl and Daniel made out some weeks back, so you can imagine how I was feeling this afternoon. I thought it was gonna happen all over again, but no. In stead of making out with the same girl, he flirted with another one. A girl he only met today.Tickling her, throughing her into the water, rubbing suntan lotion on each other... oh, so romantic! Can you imagine the imaginary knife going through my heart when reading those text messages? Yes, maybe I'm being dramatic but it's what I feel. And besides that, besides flirting with other girls, he pours his guts out when talking about his ex, and how he's still in love with her. Is this fair? Do I deserve this? Will I ever get a chance to be happy? I know nobody can answer these questions, only time, but... I know I deserve better. I know I deserve to be happy. Today, June 29th, is my birthday and I know I don't deserve to spend the day like this. Maybe after a good night sleep, I'll feel better. If you read this far, thanks for putting up with me. It's no cookie putting up with an 18 year old (yeah! lol ) !

Birthday cake for all! What's your favor? I gots' them all!