Hi,

My last blog was about 6 months ago so you would think I have a lot to say, but I don't. I am still struggling with the consequences of my psychosis and that's not easy everyday since I also have to deal with the mental illness too. I guess about a month ago I had some sort of a relapse though it came on gradually and I could see it coming (I guess PMs from that time showed it too, sorry), they upped my medication and it went back to normal (well, what's normal now? it's not the person I was before that's for sure). I am so scared of going insane and I know technically that's not what I did, but thinking about it, I think people do mean exactly my situation or similar ones when they use that sentence. I think I would say I'm paralysed by the fear of going insane... Sorry, that's not a cheery way to start a birthday blog .

I'm back at work, seems I'm back where I started, but not really. Things are not moving on the transgendered side of things because of the psychosis (I have to wait a year after to do anything about it... that's frustrating, but understandable); I really don't know where that's going... I hate being in this limbo where nothing happens and yet you get older.

Hey, on the happy note, it's less than a month to TORCHWEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can I say I'm excited? I cannot wait, I bought the Torchwood Archives on Friday and it was a fun read. Yeah, I'm still obsessed with TW and JB... Come on I can't change that much, can I?!

Okay, let's get to the important bit now:

Happy birthday Phyn (Tish)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hope you have a good one and that you resisted going into Little J's room until the end (meaning that as a post b-day treat you'll get to clean it up, right?).

We couldn't start without a birthday song.

And cake:

So okay, I'm the one who loves spiders (eheh) so the cake is all for me while the rest of you people cower in the corner... Okay, I'm not that cruel:

I'm sure this one will be more popular .

And what would be one of my b-day blogs without Mango daiquiris? Well, just impossible to imagine:

This time around though I though that maybe not everybody loves Mangoes so there's a little more choice than usually . Oh, oh... we also need margaritas, don't we, it's summer, we need to celebrate the cold drinks!

Now, that we have all a drink and cake (ummm, that's a bizarre mix, but yummy anyway). Let's have a game:

Guess Who

I think the title might give you a clue of what the game is. I'll show you body parts and you have to guess which of Phyn's favorite people it is (don't worry if you know her, you are pretty assured to have a couple of them right...) and Phyn I expect you to have the highest percentage of rights, k?

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Hope it wasn't too difficult!

Now that we had cake, booze and games... what could I think of? I know a sad personal story about our friendship! .

Last year for my birthday Phyn gave me great gifts including a Dalek keychain, I just fell in love with the thing! Anyway, when I had my psychosis in November, I didn't know who was real anymore and who wasn't because I had invented so many people that I got confused. I was asking my mom if Phyn was real and I asked for my keychain which was irrefutable proof to me that the girl was real. So my mom took the Dalek off the keychain and I slept with it that first night and kept it in my hands until I got to the psychiatric ward (about 48 hours after my admission) because it was my tether to reality, I had to let it go then though because it is metal and I couldn't have it in the ward (It could be used as a weapon since it's a Dalek doesn't that make some kind of sense? ).

Okay, sad story, drunkenness... We need songs, don't we? And what party would it be for Phyn without him? I don't want to date myself, but this is the first movie I saw with him (1980!) and it is his first movie too (see I'm so much older than you, I'm gonna cry ). Okay, I'll stop calling him, him since we all know I am talking about Adam Baldwin... don't we? This is what Phyn thinks of Adam...

Technically I've put some picks of Adam already (see that's a clue to the game though I'm sure you had guessed there was some pic of him in that ), but Phyn would not forgive me if we didn't see his face in the blog at all ...

That's it, I hope you enjoyed! I hope all Fathers out there have a Happy Father's Day !

You are right, it wouldn't be a blog of mine without my obsession too!!!!

Be good,

Phin xxx

P.S.: Phyn your b-day gift is gonna be late because I'm mailing it only this Thursday, this week was gift week with Father's Day, Isabelle at work leaving for her maternity leave and someone's b-day at work too so I couldn't fit the mailing fee in my budget, sorry ... since you have to wait until the start of July, I'll give you one clue... there's pictures of Adam in what I'm sending .