...Paradise is about to be finished in a few days/weeks.

I haven't visited (again!) GameSpot in ages, yet I've been playing more than ever... A lot of things are falling apart. Lately, I've been almost always in a brooding mood, which is absolutely horrible, I can't concentrate on almost anything and I feel a lot like I don't have any passion and daytime life is such a drag that only at night I can leave away some of my heavy thoughts.

I've been gaming around Burnout 3, Burnout Paradise and Neighbours from Hell (the first one). Burnout 3 - almost done with it. Burnout Paradise - at about 40%, I feel like it's a good game, but I lose so many times that I hardly feel motivated: in road rages, I get totalled way too fast, in races, the fact that there's no set route makes me often lose the way, and in stunt runs, at many jumps and such it is frustratingly easy to get outside the roads. Bleah... and Neighbours from Hell 1 - again, I'm pretty close to finishing. But, sometimes, I really don't know what else to do to get to the perfect percentage...

Thanks to these shady trees around my belt, I very easily get buried deep under reveries, looking behind me... I've left many things behind... I don't know what to say... Tricky to me to think about the future, all I can see is mud, apocalyptic visions... A whole chain of anxiety.

I'm not one of the insensible.

Days go by like a cradle that rocks more and more disturbingly...

Can't you see? Ignorance is pure bliss... For years, no way I've wanted to go down the road of ordinary life... I've been living like a sort of mimetic genius. Being too smart brings about too much sadness.

Ludus.

Have I been negating my past?

Probably. I got a busy schedule... My passions and my work, mixed together, only bring lots of ephemere pleasures and a lot more necessary brakes of daydreaming. I more and more often feel the need of staying still. Dammit, I'm still young and even the leaves won't hold still.

Do I need this screwdriver?

More and more bore, sore gore and ore...

Me needs more COWBELL. Which is maybe why I've gone on this recent rampage... I got luck. Luck with my friend because of which can still have a thin contact with the past. It was time to dust off the Xbox - after all, both of us were bored. Another slim session of Dead or Alive Ultimate and Burnout 3, with the latter leaving me wanting for more. For once, I wanted to unlock EVERYTHING. Finish the game for crying out louds. I thought that I did quite much a few years ago... No, only about 1/3 or 1/4 of the game was completed.

Now I can finally kiss the bowfish and say: I got 5-6 more gold medals to go and I'm (almost) over with Burnout 3. Almost, because, in order to unlock more cars, I have to go round some more races to get the last takedown trophies... Not much until 1500 total takedowns, but trickier tasks are the ones with van or big rig takedowns... With those, you gotta play really hard. And with lots of boost. I should slam the rivals hard enough to get them not into a wall, but in an upcoming car... But it is far harder than with the regular wall takedowns. You need a whole lot of luck. Generally, when there are big rigs, there is also a whole lot of traffic...

Tipsy, mini, money, mo. I gotta play more crazy games. Like Psychonauts. Does anyone remember that one? Or Beyond Good & Evil...

And, for some reason, I also feel the need to get to complete all the Monkey Island games... I'm convinced that I will find some sort of box set to include XP-compatible versions of the entire series... Hey, I'm smarter and don't use Vista.

By the way, let's see what happened to Fl0wer, it should have come out ages ago...