Damn, it is late. 12:49 a.m. EST, to be precise. I write my first blog entry at the stage of night where I cannot sleep because my eyes will not shut, though my mind is manifesting into some senseless abomination of psychology and my body is succumbing to the day's fatigue. To be clear, this is will not be grade A material. I do love to write, however, and perhaps a reprieve from this itch to express myself will allow me to get the rest I am so often deprived of.
Let's begin with my one crucially outstanding feature, that must be recognized for you to even tolerate my existance and controversial pattern of thought. It being my insanity. My family and friends simply view me as quirky, but when the doors are closed and the windows shuttered I acknowledge how bat**** crazy I am. Although I am more opinionated than I would like, I do not view my "curse" as such. I am an entity whose mind cannot be touched by unintellectual banter. Sure, some ignorant d-bag will piss me off. Though only briefly, before I tell the racist 12 year old to get through puberty before he speaks into the mic again.
I am a free thinker, I possess the ability recognize how twisted some of society's virtues are. Now, I am not an elitist by any means. Nor do I belong to the UPP (Union of Pretentious Peoples.) I simply allow myself to comment on, largely in a critical manner, the pros and cons of all in society. I analyze everything, for better or for worst. I admit to my faults and rarely my positive attributes. I am usually too hard on myself, and often on others. Analysis: It is this which drives me; yet paradoxically fuels my insanity. I must analyze, though it is often detrimental to my mood and behavior. So when I spout out negativity or criticize your views or beliefs in an attempt to convert you to my ideas and philosphy without acknowleding the irony in my own zealotry, I implore you to understand that it is out of compulsion and not hatred. I get some odd satisfaction out of proving another wrong and claiming myself a conflict's victor. I am also too stuborn to admit my defeat. Though I will always respect an intellectual or those who wish to be informed of today's issues in a light hearted manner. I have a good sense of humor and I hope to inject it into serious discussion so hostility and boredom do not become prevelant. I hope we see eachother on the frontlines of banter. I will attempt to beat you to a bloody pulp and I hope you do the same.
But when the day is over, I want to laugh it off; even if we agree to disagree. Because when it comes down to it, we are all human. It is best to separate ourselves from beast and learn to better ourselves and then help others raise above petty hatreds and phobia. Controversy will always strengthen us, though conflict will destroy us. Think about it....
Well, this is the end of blog numero uno. I had an entire issue I wished to discuss, but its bordering on 1:20 a.m. and I am about to hit R.E.M. So, I will have to end it hear. For those that read this, thanks for "listening?" and I look forward to future success. Good night and good luck.