i doubt anyone really remembers me. but i was totally bored and looked trhough my history on my computer and i just thought id see whats going down in the gaming world. i think ill come back, and make some new friends and such. i cant believe my last post was nearly a year ago. crazyness.

so what new games u all into? its a new year woo!

Well i got a wii for christmas, but we only have wii sports(which i totally pwn at!) and some football game thing. Ummm yeah.

Hope to talk to u guys soon. =)

Smiles

To see the dimples rise in the redness in his cheeks

Not out of breathe but in great joy

The lingering longing hands reach up

The girl stands hesitant, scared yet staring down at this little boy

She can't look away from him

So much pain and saddness, his life is so short

His face so small, helpless, and young

Yet he smiles and reaching his hand for mine

He wants me to walk with him, he does not speak

Just holds up his hand

A river flows from my heart and he notices

He shakes his head and firmly holds out his hand

The boy stood motionless and weary yet

with no. Regret

The girl bottled up with sadness and anger in what curse is apon this boy

The boy just letting the sarrow and hate just fly over his head

People usually have choices in life but not

about their dealth but maybe how they handle it

And like a basket the girl weaved her hand with the boy's

She walked with him

His smile glistened

More tears dripped from her eyes, but then a soft smile appeared...

(Random poem that i wrote. )

Jessi's Poem By: Gianna

She is her own person
She's not you and me
She is her own person
Can't you see

She has her own way
She likes different things
She has her own way
With all the joy she brings

She lives her own life
Not influenced by others
She lives her own life
And takes care of her brother

She works really hard
In school and in play
She works really hard
In every way

She's one of my friends
One of the best to be exact
She's one of my friends
And that's a fact

We were writting poems in our creative writting subject and my friend G wrote this random poem for me. It was totally the sweetest thing ever. So tomorrow im going to write her one too, and give her a basket of chocolate. I was nearly crying. LOL. Love friends. Till the end

I wonder. Do people ever realize what they are? I mean, I used to always think they're we're things that made people happy, and people that were happy. Also that no ones life's are perfect, but that's the way life is. I thought that i had both, things that make me happy, and that i was happy. But im not. But this is in general not about me. For the past 3-5 months, more and more i have gone into thought about this. I have read the twilight series by steph meyer 6 times. And thats 3 books, and about 440-680 pages per book. Thats kinda alot. But anyway. As i read the books(amazing books by the way), i realized i loved being in that world. Everytime my eyes lied opon the words, the more and more i wished it was real, and that i was there and not here and would never come back. There are different worlds for me, that sounds so crazy but its so true. And my video games, like kingdom hearts. God. To me, it would be amazing to live in it, be there and not here, as well as zelda, and final fantasy. I think you get the idea, that i didnt want to be here, but somewhere else. I thought before that those things made me happy, and thats just it. Thats All they can do, make me happy and wish i was somewhere else, not just entertainment for me, or something to do, but another life. I used to be such a happy person, untill i realized what our world was. The beg. of this school year back in like sept.-oct. I learned about religions in my world history cla.ss.I always knew that people went to church and stuff, but never really gave much thought to it, thinking it was just something my friends had to do just cause they were suppose to. But it is actually a way of life. It bewilders me. So much of religion that i had not known till i was almost 16(im 16 now but wasnt then), i was pissed. Why didnt they tell us anything? And why didnt our teachers tell us at young ages why there was war, and what was happening in africa. I learned about the women being raped, the people being chased out of their already crappy villiages, war. No one freaking told us. I hate it. Yeah we were little, and probably would have been upset, but Everyone should know what is happening in this world. They say it would be hard on us, well guess what? Its happening. EVERYWHERE. What the flying flip frick Okay? The world is NOT perfect, and people should not tell their children it is, or not even that, not what is going on to make it not perfect. We are killing ourselfs. Not literally, but by what we are doing to our earth, and people. Botox?! What the hell, we're not going to live forever, its not meant to be that way, and you shouldnt make yourself look like a barbie doll anyway, u like looking like plastic? But hey it is your money, do with it what you want. People should use that money to help out OTHER people, not their faces, like childern in africa and other foreign countries that need food, and clothes and education. As they say, the childern are our future, and hopefully will care more than the people of today.

I'm sorry if i had offened anyone in this blog, but this is just a small portion on how i feel right now. If i write anymore, i think i'd need some caffeine lol.

feedback on how other people is appreachated(im so sorry i cant spell)

-Jessi