Okay, I am going to warn you right now, I have absolutely no aim with this blog post. I am pretty tired and in an extremely strange mood (coincidence?), and just feel like writing about what is currently going on in my life, and through my head.

Well, right now I am pretty tired. Last night I hit the sack at about 12:30 I think, and woke up at around 8:30 AM. I was having trouble completely waking up, so I crept out of my bed, hit the power switch of my computer, waited for it to quickly boot up, clicked on The Stillborn One by Necrophagist and then slunk back into bed. Great way to start the day, I will say that much!

So why am I tired with that amount of sleep? Well, today I got together with Chelsea (the girl that I like) and her friend Mo and we went to Wal-Mart and Taco Bell and finally the mall. At the mall they took me into Victoria's Secret for the first time where all my senses were assaulted by the glorious "Pink Room". While walking around, I happened to pass a Verizon booth and noticed that one of the dudes there seemed familiar. I didn't really think anything of it though, and kept walking. As I passed, he looked up and said "Hey! Dude come here!" While I started to turn around, Chelsea grabbed my arm and said "Don't get sucked into that! C'mon let's go!", so I just turned around and started walking away. As I did so, the guy was like "No wait! Come back! I play chess with you!" This caught me by surprise, so I went back and it turns out that he's the dude that I tied with for a section prize in the New Mexico Open a couple of months ago. We chatted for a bit and he gave me an old chess program that he happened to have with him. As Chelsea later noted, it's a bit strange that he had it with him, but whatever.

So that's all well and good, but I started thinking about the encounter a bit more later. I mean, seriously, what are the odds that 1. He works at the Verizon booth that we passed 2. Happened to be working that day that we went to the mall 3. We happened to pass that part of the mall at a time when he was there 4. He recognized me from way back then. I dunno, maybe it's because my mind is in a weakened, tired state, but this simple occurrence is really getting me thinking about how amazing life is.

But then for some reason (again probably having to do with my tired state) I started thinking about how weird life can be. This is a recurring train-of-thought for me, and each time I don't leave any wiser, haha. Basically, I get to thinking about how trippy life can be, and it just makes me remember that Matrix quote about not knowing the difference between a dream and reality. So that's what I'm thinking about right now. I mean, I know that I'm awake, but do I really know that I'm awake? And what is awake? Am I in control of my destiny? Being an agnostic atheist (ooo, technical! ), I think that I am. But what is this "life" that we have?

Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that I'm all paranoid and think that the concept behind the Matrix (us being in a computer world of the mind) is true or anything like that, but really, the lack of knowledge we have about our existence is astounding. Haha, I feel like I'm high or something.

Oh, but I think I'm pretty much smitten with Chelsea to be honest, so that may be affecting me too. Yeah she's hot and all, but she really intrigues me. She has a very unique personality and I... really like it. Not much else to say there I guess, haha. I feel like she's interested in me (I don't want to go into all the reasons why, but for instance today at the mall she kept on grabbing my arm and making general physical contact, and laughing at pretty much all my jokes, haha) so we'll see what goes down there. I'm pissed right now though because the holidays and a chess tournament over the weekend will prevent me from seeing her again until next Tuesday.

Anyway, I have no ****ing clue why I'm writing this down, but I find that typing this stuff out in blogs is very therapeutic so I'm doing it anyway. I'm sure I'll come back after a good night's sleep and laugh at myself. So with that, I must say g'night!

HOLY ****ing ****! Okay hold that thought, while I was getting the youtube link for my "Song of the Blog", I started watching the video for that particular song for the first time and my mind has been blown. Seriously.

Here's the song: Muse - Bliss

That brings up another weird thing: dreams. I used to have a recurring dream (sadly, I haven't had it in a while. Perhaps because of my sleep schedule) where I'd be standing on a walkway in a room that jutted out into a forever descending pit swirling with mist (just imagine some of the areas from Halo and you'll get the idea ). So as I'm standing on the walkway, I begin running and then jump off the edge. I'm filled with peace as I just continuously fall through the mist until I wake up. I hear that "falling dreams" are somewhat common, but haven't heard of any explanations behind them. I know it's just a dream (and one that I haven't had for a while at that), but apparently dreams offer unaldulterated glimpses of what's going on in one's mind, and I'm curious as to what the hell I'm doing jumping off platforms. Oh now that I think about it, it's reminiscent to that final scene in Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon!

Okay, so here's the real end of my blog, I'm too tired to write anymore. I can't wait to see how rubbish this is tomorrow! Until then, I'm sure most of you are taking a break from GameSpot for the holidays, so I shall take this time to wish you all happy holidays!

Forerunner out.