Turns out I won't be asking her out, better yet it is best that I forget her...which is hard to do. Some time ago, I will never know why, she stopped talking to me. I never even told her how I felt. It hurt, it was very hard on me because I felt so strong for her.

I cared about her, I wanted to protect her and make sure she would be safe. I don't know why she stopped talking to me, and I probably never will know. All I know is it hurts a lot, but I hope that she will have a good life in the long run. That's all I ever want for her, is for her to be happy. But then, in the end, isn't that all we really can do for people? Hoping that they could at least be happy?

Thanks for all the advice that you guys gave, it's just a shame that things ended the way they did. Things work out for everyone, but things have never worked out for me, and they probably never will, LOL.

You know, I got to thinking once. This is nothing about the girl I was talking about. Why is it...girls go after the jerks and the bastards out there, get hurt and come to guys like me for comfort and guidance, then they go right back to the jerks and bastards just to get hurt again and again? It's a never ending cycle, which truly shows that people like me will probably end up growing old and bitter. lol, who knows.

Don't know why I'm posting this, I probably won't get more than one response.

I'm in love with this great girl. She's so special, so unique. I look into the ocean and see all these dull, grey fish, but she's the one that shines with the brightest color. I know that sounded cheesy, but it doesn't change anything.

She is sweet, strong, and a great girl. She's not perfect, but she is probably the nicest girl ever. When I'm with her, my heart seems to do flips. I feel hungry and at the same time, not hungry. I find myself looking at her, and when I look at her, I can help but smile and gaze at her. Her eyes are beautiful, and she really is a "treasure" as I've called her. I did that because she works at a place called "Texas Treasures" and I've joked with her sort of and actually called her a treasure. That's what she is. I want to protect her, I want to keep her safe from danger, and furthermore, I want to be by her side. She's strong indeed, and has been through a lot to prove that she's strong enough. I won't mention what it is that she's been through, it's not something that she would want being told that often, I know that much.

She's always on my mind, it seems, and I am happiest when I'm with her. The feelings I've felt for her were feelings that I've never felt in my life. I've spoken to my friends, and my closest most trustworthy ones have told me, they feel it is love. I should give it time and see where things go, eventually I will ask her out. I would love for her to come to college here, because then she's with me and I'm happy. The world, my troubles, my past, they all slip away when I'm with her. I can't describe to you just how wonderful of a feeling that is. When I'm with her, I'm focused on making her smile and smiling myself, that I forget about all my pains. She has a beautiful smile, and it makes me giggle, yes giggle, whenever I see it. There's a freckle on the side of her face, whenever she smiles, the mole goes into the dimple. It is cute, that's what I think. She has a good and strong personality, as I may have mentioned. She isn't going to let certain things in her life bring her down, she is willing to try and fight her struggles.

These reasons and more are just why I can say, I love this girl, with all my heart. I don't think anything will ever come of it, and I don't think she will ever see me as more than that friend who gives her comfort during rough times. I will probably never tell her how I feel, because I know I'd be devastated if it was ruined. However, I will still always feel a desire to see her happy and protect her in any way that I can. She's an angel, that's what I think about her. She's special, she's unique, she's the only girl I've ever known to not crack under tremendous pressure. She's amazing, and makes me think that I too could fight all the struggles of my life.

Either way, I just don't know what to do. I guess this feeling started a year ago, but it didn't surface until a month ago. I want to care for her, I want to protect her..She lives in my hometown, so I know her in person, but I go to college two hours away. I can't just tell her online, nor on the phone, I don't think. But I'm sure of rejection...I just don't think love exists, at least not for me.

I know at one point of time, I was like a friend to her, but now I'm not sure. I remember sending her a message a week ago, and she still hasn't even read it. Since I was recently betrayed by one close friend, I have these fears that she doesn't think I'm a friend anymore. Yet, I know that she's going through some rough times, especially with men and trust issues...I just don't know what to do. I think I'm too deep...

Yeah, I could really use some advice, not the same "pray about it" or "education's more important" advice. I am Christian, but sometimes it's good to get actual advice...

No, that is NOT High School Musical related. Just felt like saying that again...anyway, onto this!

Yo yo yo, weclome to this new series that I'm starting! It's called the Rant Series, but it isn't strictly rants. I'll throw in some comedy every now and then and perhaps I'll post random blogs.

Whenever you see a Rant, you will see this-Rant: (insert rant name here). That will tell you I have a new rant up. I have my own blog site, but I'll use this since people seem to read this blog more. However, on that blog site, I have more blogs...I may use those blogs here sometime, since no one has read those. That site is here: http://flamesofnature.blogspot.com/

I assure you, you will enjoy this. I'm going to be creating a new rant every so often. Maybe Weekly, or perhaps two days a week. You decide! How often would you like to see one from me? Enjoy, and please leave some comments!

So yeah, let me know how often you want. Once a week should be every Wednesday. Twice a week would be Tuesdays and Thursdays. Three times a week would be Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. Currently there's one that says Twice a day. Let me know what you want.