Finished Dragon Age: Origins. Got my prince, half the kingdom, killed a power-mad man and sexed up a witch.

I finished the game 60% complete, and I can't go back and do the quests I missed! DAMN YOU BIOWARE! I HAVE TO START A NEW CHARACTER FOR THAT! *shakes fist in anger*

The game itself took me around 45 hours to complete, but I procrastinated a lot, and I tried to avoid having to fight Loghain and his army of baddies for as long as possible... But Sten looked at me in a funny way, so I did it. Y_Y

Now on to the human noble origins, then a dwarf. And I HAVE to sex up that wicked witch of the wild, but that means I have to make a man D:

Dragon Age Origins Collectors edition is now MIIIIIINE! *cackles*

Laters. I'm busy making my city elf PERFECT!

I finally, in a haze of sleeping pills and sugar rushing, understood my battle. The battle between me and my mind. The good and the bad.

Listening to Little Wonders and reflecting upon my life, and loosing family members, family pets and friends throughout my life finally makes sense to me.

I lost my dog around three months ago now, and I usually cry myself to sleep at night because I miss him, miss being able to hug him, etc etc. But today, the tears streaming down my face isn't of sadness, but of joy. I figured my own personal puzzle, my way out of my misery.

As the song goes, the hardest part is over. Yes, atleast the first step towards beating that hard part has been taken. Now I just have to do the battle, but not alone, no. I have friends who like me for who I am, not for who I ain't. I have family that loves me, even if they suck at showing it at times. I have internet friends who have been through their own personal hell, and lived to tell the tale. They all believe in me, and I believe in them. I'm about to start on a four week course/day school-thingie at the psychiatric hospital's childrens department, so maybe finally I'll get some more answers and more help to break out of this.

I better end this half-sleeping rant/infomercial before I actually fall asleep, or something like that.

This is Deih, with a big smile on her face, after so many months with nothing but a frown or an indifferent attitude.

I'm so grateful for what I get, even if the help is at the wrong time, and all of this could have been prevented if someone had figured I had ADD back in kindergarten. Oh well, that's that, and this is now.

Remember to smile

Signing out, with a BIG smile. Deih