Well, for some reason I forgot to mention in my last blog that my girlfriend dumped me. Actually it was a month ago yesterday. But the reason for writing this blog, other than to give all of you a little summary of what's been going on in my life (not much, by the way), is to ask a question: what makes a guy crush?

Is it just lust? Or is it the personality?

There's another girl now, and I really do like her personality, and she's pretty too. I just want to know if I like her more for her personality or her looks. With the last one, I think I based looks over personality and didnt realize it. I ended up not likeing her as much after more 1-on-1 conversations. I dont want to make the mistake of going out with a girl based on looks again, because even though I didnt like her QUITE as much, it still threw me into a mild depression.

I've lost most of my friends (the moved away) and then the girl that I KNOW that I liked for personality said that she didnt love me anymore (ironically I was listening to Blood To Bleed by Rise Against when she called to say this!), and I walked in on one of my best friends half dead on his bed with a heroin needle hanging out of his arm. The last girl breaking up with me threw the thought of suicide into my mind (I'm perfectly fine now, so dont worry about me) I'm afraid that if I made the wrong decision again, the thought may not go away... And I (as well as my friends and family) would NOT like that at all!

So as you can see, this is a very VERY important question to me. I've already asked a few other friends and talked to my therapest about it, but I was just wondering if any of you have any imput into my little situation that you'd like to share.

Wow, that is the most that I have ever said to people that I really dont know in person! Thank you all for reading!

P.S.- I put my friend code here on my profile. It's in the little box with all the online information in it (duh).