Tuesday, Feb 10, 2009
I'm being still punished at the age of 20. My father turns on/off my computer at 4-11pm. It kills me I can't talk to my friends, or Bf, or anyone. I'm always depressed, and crying my heart out all the time. Today the computer was suppose to be on at 4pm and its on at 8pm. And all my father said you have the time you get, meaing ill probley be on until 11pm still. He's doing this because I quit my old job, because the manager there was really mean to me. I got a new job and its way better and fun to work at. But only problem is, they can't give me much hrs at the moment right now. So my father keeps that as an excuse from me using the computer."You don't work enough". I usualy say I can not get anymore hrs. He doesn't understand. I'm tired of being pushed to my limits of life. Sometimes I really feel like killing myself or him. I used to overdose on pills and used to drink alcohol. :/ I'm starting to give up on life. :/
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Posted Feb 10, 2009 6:50 pm PT
I just turned 21 and I know how you feel. I haven't felt the way your feeling for a while though. Ever since I started exercising regularly I've had a much more positive attitude, even though my life has negative aspects. There are good days and bad days... don't try analyzing your life when your in a bad mood. (I used to always do this..) Try to remember that your not the only person in the world with problems. Cheer Up, my friend 
Posted Feb 11, 2009 6:27 am PT
Yeah, I'm really trying hard not to lose it. I don't believe in god. Sorry its the way I am. I'm not sure why he's treating me so badly. I wish I had a better father. And a better life too. I've been trying to save up to get out of the house and live in an apartment or so. I'd be so much less stressed out. :/
Posted Feb 11, 2009 1:07 pm PT
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