OKay, I know I don't act like it on the internet, but I need help. Everytime I talk to one of you all on here I try to seem happy but the truth is Im not. Im depressed and need people to talk to someone about it.

At the begining of the year, my bestest friend in the whole world moved to North Carolina. She was the only person I trusted and could talk to about anything. Well then I started to become close to one of our best friends Tamra. Then she decided to get up and move on me too. Now my dad is being a grouch all the time and it just seems like I cant escape it.

Now I only have three friends: KK, Faith, and Jessica. Jessica doesnt even sit with us at lunch, Faith is more of a fun friend not someone u can talk to, and KK has a screwed up life. KK recenlt had to call social services cuz her mom hit her. Now she is in a big mess and its too late to fix.

And do you all remember Aaron? The guy I was so desperatly in love with? Well out of nowhere he dumped me...A WEEK BEFORE PROM!!!! He told KK it was because he didn't want to date the same girl for that long. Do u know how that made me feel? Like I was just a talley mark on his list of girlfriends. This is the boy I had my first kiss with. He is the only boy I have ever fully let my guard down with. I spent at least 3 hors crying about it. Im still not over it and I dont think I ever will be....

Well sorry for the depressing blog, I just had to get it off my chest.

Sarah