Well.... this is going to almost sound like bragging, but I needed to tell someone and I don't have anyone I can actually tell. >_>

So, two nights ago I was at this "sleepover" (basically an excuse for a small group of my friends to stay out as long as they want without being expected to come back), and we walked around town for a while. We got up on the roof of this elementary school and looked at the stars for a while and just generally loitered like hooligans around in the dark. There had been this girl (whose name will not be divulged for reasons of modesty) I was, for lack of a better term, "crushing on" and had been for a long time. We got tired and headed back to my friend's house, where a little while later most everyone fell asleep. Before long all the lights in the house were off, and it was just me and this girl sitting on my friend's bed. About a week before, we had discovered a mutual feeling of attraction, again for lack of a better term, but she had decided we couldn't let it go anywhere because we were friends and blah blah blah all that nonsense. So I hadn't expected that night to go anywhere either. We got to talking and before I knew it she leaned in really close and it was the most amazing night ever.



And, anyways... it's not like it sounds. We didn't... uh... you know. But it was fun and it was still one of the most amazing thing ever. Thanks for reading if you did but I just really needed to write it all out because I don't have a blog or diary or anything like that and it's good to have a record of things like this besides memory.

Wow, I am really getting sick of people (especially in OT) calling everything emo. 99% of them don't even know what emo is, they just love the word, I guess. They are really starting to piss me off.


"Oh, your dog died? You're so emo."

"What do you mean you have a girlfriend?? You must be one of those emos."

"You got in a fist fight? YOU MIGHT AS WELL CHANGE YOUR NAME TO EMO McEMO."


These are all made up examples of course, but you get the idea. It seriously gets annoying. Somebody will probably call me emo for complaining about this.

It hasn't even happened yet and I'm already traumatized. My summer was fun but it seemed like it ended all too abruptly. And I was disappointed I didn't get to tell this girl I like her. I still can, but there's something really fun and uninhibited and free about doing that sort of thing during the summer on one of those warm clear starry nights . . .




THIS JUST SUCKS. I'll update this when I come back this afternoon. Wish me luck.

Edit: my classes are all pretty easy and the only one I'm a little worried about is English. It's not that I'm not good in English, I just really hate the teacher and I don't really know many people in the class. All in all it wasn't as bad as I expected. It was only the first day though, so all I had to do was sit there and listen to the teachers drone on about curriculum and behavior policies and all that crap. We'll see how it goes from here on out.