ok, so like last week...nearly killed me! omg! The stress level was so high >.> I felt so bad after that week. SO bad I blacked out one night after the stress got too high, lucky i was in Bed.

#1 Alicia broke up with me, so she could choose between me & some other friend of hers, at least thats what i got from it

& My heart broke, thats where the actual bad week began, & that was the weekend b4 last. v_v I was caught offguard, didnt expect that & it hurt me. & I cried my heart out...

#2 One of my friends online died, Demi, tho i didnt know him all too well he was still a good friend, I felt so bad & I cried my heart out yet again...He was killed in a car wreck cuz of his Drunk Driving dad I hate drinking, it helps nothing >.>

#3 The end of the bad week, got very stressful here, One of my online sisters played a sick joke on me, I have helped her once b4 when she was gonna kill herself, & she swallowed a bunch of sleeping pills, so Alicia & I both talked with her trying to keep her awake, but she fell asleep & I got worried she wouldnt wake up, but then next day I had an offline msg sayin "Im alive!" & idk if that time was fake or not, but the 2nd time, last week...Not one hour After i told my online sis about my bad Week, #1 & #2 both, then she decied it was a perfect time to mess with me I guess.

Well she was talkin about killing herself once more, & me I got worried of course, & she told me she had slit her wrist & was bleeding all over, makin my stress rise a lot more cuz i was scared & not knowing wtf was happening, then she called 911 cuz no one was home she said, so then it got really odd & I got pissed off! Because she said, the ambulance had got there, so I was like ok good so u better go, in the back of my head this never felt right but in times like this I was not abut to say anything & u never know, so i played along & then...

Apparently the next thing i know >.> I was talkin with a "Paramedic" through Chatango O.o & i was like WTF! No way this is Real! @.@ Confused, I continued playin along & then after 10 mins >.> of talkin with thi "Paramedic" He said "Sir I have to go"

Yea thats when i continued playin along but Hinted at answers, I kept askin him to Prove this was really a Paramedic, but "he" kept Dodging my questins So i knew it was fake, & My sis was there...makin me think she was bleeding all over & all this twisted stuff, so he said he had to go & it got quiet...

Then i got my friend Ashley to go talk with My sis who was "supposedly" on her way to the Hospital in an Ambulance, cuz she wanst answering me, BUT She answered Ashley & well i got MAD & went to have a talk with her & told her i knew she was there, & next thing i know somene finaly talked back >.> & she went "T_T" Like she was crying...which idk about *shrugs*. But i yelled at her & i got so mad, told her she was no longer my sis, & she better not come back to me with her BS, cuz I wont have it. Kinda like the story of the Boy who cried Wolf >.>

& right after that happened, My heart & my head hurt bad, Vision got Blurry as hell, I could barely Breathe, my hands were going numb & i was very cold, then I got light headed & dizzy, decided to eat something b4 leaving for bed, early for me, about 3:30 AM is early for me

Staggered my ass into the Kitchen, barely walking straight, then ate at the computer desk & headed to bed, but as soon as I hit the bed...No sooner than maybe like 5 mins of lying there feeling like sh*t I totally Blacked out...dont remember wtf happened, I just passed out, all the stress from that week Ate away at me, my heart had nearly had enough. I was scared to death, never have i feared something so much, trust me it was BAD, the worst i think i have ever felt. Luckily I woke up an hour later after i passed out & i felt slightly better, & I was alive >.> Yay!

But thats Last week, this week, I was just slightly stressed on the waitng for Alicia, waiting for her to make her mind up or w/e she was doing...which i was just hoping she could see how much i Love her & I dont want to lose her...idk, just something about her that makes me feel good, & my heart tells me I should stay as close to her as I can until we can maybe meet someday. & what my heart tells me is that I really Love this one, this is so different...& idk what she feels, or what she thinks of me truly. Lately i get a lot of Negative comments >.> Like "oh she could be still talkin with him & tellin him the same things" & "Justin, god! She just ran back to u cuz her other didnt work out, ur really gonna take sloppy seconds"

O.O I am feeling bad about my supposed friends makin me think bad things, I mean MY GOD ppl Leave me ALONE about it. I do wish I had more Info tho, cuz its so burry still... & I just dont want to be hurt again

I will always love u Alicia. Just need a chance, & need to get my life back on track. & If u would, I wouldl ike u to help me any way...so that I can help u as well.

Cya all later my friends, Sorry about the rant of my feelings at the end, I really dont feel i got that right o.o but i tried. Later & Take care. (Oh & btw in case u have not figured it out Aliicia & I are back together now, & i hope it works out somehow this time)