I don't get why nothing seems to work out for me

At the moment iv had a cough/sevre cold type thing for about a week, which has made me quite weak and light headed. Was sick lastnight so I dont think it'l be gone any time soon. I havnt really slept in this time either and my mum has MADE me go to school in this state

Its kinda funny though, I dont remember the last time iv been this drugged up with paracetamol, cough mixture, tablet thingys and god knows whatever else my body has had to absorb to try and get better

To top things off my cat who iv known since I was born had to be put down today . She was 22, which is about 154 in cats years I think. My mum said that when she was pregnant with me, sambo (my cat) used to lay on her stomach and I used to kick her off Apparently she had some kinda lump and fluid kept building up. She wouldn't eat and there was nothing the vets could do to help her so they just put her to sleep

So yeah, life is pritty much taking the **** right now.

Oh and thanks everyone for your comments on my last blog

Well as most of you know it was halloween lastnight. Here I was thinking that I was gonna get slightly drunk, get loads of hugs from everyone and just generaly have a good time out with my friends.

Even though the rain was polite enough to save its self for the morning after it really not a good night

We went out to the back of our old school (we got a new one built) and had I stupidly had about a quarter of a bottle of straight vodika, a martinie and lemonade before hand, and a few of my friends WKD and some more vodika with energy drink. I think only three of us got quite drunk and the others were a bit light headed but anyway...

What happened was that my friend raynor who was really wasted dissapeared for 4 hours, my friend jasmine (also out her face with drink) became almost paraletic and apparently went in and out of consiousness, I was crying all night about stuff at home and some more personal stuff, and also at the fact that one person was missing and we couldn't get a hold of her and that another friend was going crazy and crying her eyes out and I couldnt do anything to help

Me, jasmine and my cosin went back to mine because they were staying over. Raynor was supposed to aswel but I couldn't do much about it at 11:30pm with a drunk mate and the fact I was drunk myself.

I think it was about 2:30 in the morning when raynor turned up at my door. No shoes, cuts up her legs, in floods of tears, no phone. She came in and I gave her a hug. Does anyone know what its like to have a friend shivering, crying and terrified in their arms? Well if not then you don't want to. Its was really scary, she didn't know where she had been, she didn't know how she found her way to mine.

I don't think anything bad happened to her, the cuts are probably from her falling down the hill we found her shoes at the bottom of. But we still don't know where she was or if anything HAS happened

I feel like such a rubbish friend how could anyone let someone they care about get in a state like that? Im just glad she found her way to mine

I don't think I actually said I was going to rome on here....so if anyone was wondering where I have been for the last 5 days, Its because I was in rome but il tell you guys all about it in my next blog.

Right, since I was tagged by DinkyFish I guess I should think of 10 facts now, hmmm.....

1: Im a girl - Not very interesting I knowbut many people on here seem to presume that eveyone on here is a guy Just thought id make my gender clear

2: I like playing with fire .....I don't know why I just find it quite interesting

3: Vampires are sexy especially female ones

4: Which brings me to my next fact...im bisexual...if you were a bit like "eh?" to the second bit on fact 3

5: Im very comfy!

6: Fave band = Evanescence. Me hearts Amy Lee, and the music of course, have since a young age

7: Religion bugs me.

8: Im scared of my cuboard....or any cuboard in general due to a really bad nightmare I had when I was younger.

9: Love laughing Best pass time ever

10: My mum needs to wise up.....we had another major fallout again, so I just thought id put in my opinion of her. Shes a spiteful *****

So anyway, the people im gonna tag are:

Rebelway

-Absinthe-

and Cody13_2012