i didn't even read part 1 (no offense) and yeah i'm sending them a christms card

No, I won't do what you say. It just doesn't feel right, I know everyones doing it but I can't bring myself to do something like that. It's horrible, it's immoral, it's blaspheme, it's just wrong. I know it's going to help in the end but suppose something happens. I've got a family to think about and I can't afford to take that sort of risk. I know I promised to do my part but that doesn't mean I'm going to throw my life away! I wish I could help but I can't bring myself to do it. I said I would and I guess they where right, I'm a wimp. I can't believe I'm going to chicken out now, but what other option do I have? I'm sorry, what kind of man am I? A liar, a traitor, maybe even a fool. But I just can't deal with this sort of stressful situation at this point in my left. I apologize and hope all goes well. Well, happy holidays and good luck.

what fireheart conmrade arkanson?