Yup as some of you know today's my Birthday......Yeah i know...i should be all happy and ecstatic or whatever but i'm not like most people soo....it's not really something a look forward to...especially right now...
Yeah school hasn't shown me much love lately. I'm currently flunking most of cla-ss-es and most teachers have just decided to give up on me...or use me as an example of a student you don't want to become. Yeah i mean at school i'll just laugh it off or go along with it but deep inside it really does hurt...alot. I know i can do wayyy better but it's just i dunno i've never really liked doing schoolwork....yes i know what you're thinking...."claudia just do the work and it'll pay off" but you have no idea what situation i'm really in...and because of whats going on i really don't find a reason of why i should keep trying.
And i've been really confused about many things lately...School, friends, life, me, and it's just one huge rollercoaster ride of emotions. I've recently started writting in a diary cuz i don't really trust blogs that much, and it's kinda helped me relax a little but i still go to sleep with this feeling of lonelyness and confusion. I dunno why i'm going through all this. Like my friend said i have my "emo moments" and it's true i guess. aghhh i have to get everything straight or else i feel like i'm gonna burst and do something i'll regret....
Anyways.....
Have i mentioned how much i love Jenne and Lani and new buddy Eric?! They're too flippin' cool!! Last night or this morning i guess they sang Happy Birthday to me 
and i got a new banner from jenne that was soo hotttt my computer almost failed 
thanks soo much sis!! and the song was just amazing 
from all of you. I also wanna give the BIGGEST HUG EVER to everyone who said Happy Birthday! I love ya ll tons!! You guys are some of the greatest people ever...especially when i'm feeling down you guys are there for me and i thank you guys for that. I don't know what i'd do witout the Hiphuggers Crew and everyone i've met here i know this is getting sappy but i just wanted you guys to know that. When i have the worst day at school or at home i know i can come here and wash away all the negative. well with that said
I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!! THANKS FOR EVERYTHING!!!!!
-claudia out