Hello.

I'm not too sure if anyone around here still remember me, But I felt like blogging. And no, its not the fun kind of blog. So feel free not to read. I just needed to put it out there, to prevent my head from exploding and my heart from breaking

Today I kinda got kick to my face. Reality decided I had my fun, and its time to show me the real world.

As you may or may not know, I recently came back from Australia after a short visit of 7 months minus 10 days. While I was there, I kinda didn't have to worry about the real life responsibilities. There was no need to think about anything regarding work, studying, payments..

Whenever I phoned people back home, They seemed to miss me, and asked me when I'll be back. I understand why they didn't phone me, it is way too expansive to do so. At first I used to get emails and SMSz just because. And as time went by, the less people did that. Of course I had an explanation for everything. SMSz aren't that cheap. They are busy with exams and collage and problems at work, so they don't get to email me all that much... Yeah right.

Denial is a magical tool to avoid reality and dealing with feelings. And I am good at not dealing with things.

Anyways, someone told me, OUT OF SIGHT, OUT OF MIND. Oh how that is true.

Back to the kick at my face... Besides the fact that everyone who comes back here from a trip somewhere in the world feels it was a mistake to come back (which I felt too), Today I found out something about who my true friends are, and who doesn't even deserve my time.

Without going into too much details, I finally realized I was living a dream. Whereas the reality is more like a nightmare. Okay, I might be a little exaggerating due to the fact I'm pissed, and feeling like crap right now, But the truth is, I had NO idea about anything.

On the one hand I'm glad I found out now. On the other, I think I'd rather not know. At least not no - when I have nothing good waiting for me. My best friend is Busy trying to fit work, college and studying for her exams. Another close friend is traveling. Another one has moved to another city so I barely get to see her.. People from work (or where I used to work before I went to Aus) are too busy ranting about the sucky place they work at....

Sure, at least I still have my family who I know loves me and care about me, But sometimes you need more than that.

So I know its just a phase, and like everything in life, that shall too pass. But you know what? I don't care. Right now I feel like crying and smacking something to make me feel better. But I won't smack anything, so instead - I blogged.

If you made it all the way here - Kudos. Sorry you had to read all my rambling.

And now I'm out.

Hey guys!

it's been almost a month since I last blogged. and to tell ou the truth, I didn't miss it one bit For some reason I don't enjoy this place as much as I did before. Oh well

So I am now blogging for 2 purposes:

It is Denisa's (kaluca) Birthday today! (26.10)

Sweetie, Have an awesome day!

Filled with lots and lots of laughter and love.

May all your wishes come true

And we have to have cake..

La Multi Ani!!!!!!!!!

Love you buddy!

The second reason for me blogging today, is to let you all know I AM GOING TO AUSTRALIA!!!!!!!!!! Can I have a WOOT WOOT?

So I'm going on my way on Tuesday (OMG that's soon! :shock And I finally gonna meet Stacey, Ana and Hayley

it's going to be a LOOONG flight... 11 hours to Hong Kong and another 9 to Melbourne But it will TOTALLY be worth it!

And I think that's it from me.. I rambled enough

**Huge chocolate covered Hugs**

Hey all. It's been a little longer than a month since I last blogged, And with the new layout I don't feel like blogging.. Even now I'm blogging through MP3.com .

And why am I blogging, you ask? I'll tell you. Coz it's SASSY's Birthday today! (it's the 30th in Australia already..)

Hope you'll have an awesome day

filled with lots of joy and love

May all your dreams and wishes come true.

Have a fantastic birthday!

May this year be even better than the last one

(it has to be.. it's when you'll get to meet ME )

And on to the.... CAKE!

and another one..

and... you guessed it right! another one!

And some booze

And now that you've all been fed, Here's some pressies:

Love you dude!