I approach the end of yet another week. I sit here and question what is it that I want to accomplish in life. I've been working at my job for a little over 2 years, but don't see myself going anywhere. As Tamara said at one point, "the assembly line" life.

This week has been much easier to get through. I've been seeing Lindsay a lot. She gives me something to look forward to everyday after work. Since I've met her, I felt just so much less depressed.

However, there are a few things that are still riding on my mind. Just day to day stuff that I know I need to get done, but haven't yet. I'm just trying to hold out to my next paycheck so I can get my bills paid (mainly my Cable bill). Eddy was supposed to mow the yard last Monday, but didn't get to it, so I'm thinking I will have to do that this weekend, sometime. I also need to pick up some batteries for my wireless keyboard. The thing is dead, and I can't use my computer till I do (I'm typing this at work).

I just need to get caught back up on things.

As far as my job goes, I'm really just getting tired of working in a call center. Yeah, I get paid to do nothing at times, but I find myself wanting to do more things that interest me. The local computer store down the street is hiring for part time techs. I was thinking about putting in a resume and see where that goes. I wouldn't also mind applying at a company called "Unisys." $13/hr, full benefits, paid holidays off. Right there is already offering more than what I am getting now at Teleperformance, except of course, its still a call center job.

I wouldn't mind going back to school, but it's just a matter if I could afford it, and be able to discipline myself to set aside time for school. I'd really hate myself if I went back, then failed. But I don't trust myself to stay dedicated at this time. It seems that factor is what is really holding me back.

I love computers. I really do. I love working with them, fixing them, building them, upgrading them, playing around on them, everything. I want a job where I can do that. Not talk on the phone all day.