So Lindsey and I broke up a few weeks ago. There wasn't any problems in
the relationship, just that we hit a rut. We really weren't progressing
much and we both decided to break it off on good terms.

Crazy
thing, not having to deal with drama. We both came from crappy
relationships in the past, so we decided that we would look at this one
as a healing one. We both now know that it is possible to have a
drama-free relationship.

In more recent news, another girl from
my past started talking to me again. Her name is Erica, and she is
definately a hot girl. Little did I know that she's had this thing for
me for years..... or so I thought.

We hung out a few times already, and now she's disappeared off the face of the earth.

I
don't understand why people do that. Why is it that you are desired
when you are taken, then once you are single again these people turn
their tail and run? Maybe I'm thinking too much into it, or there's
more here than meets the eye and I'm not seeing it.

Oh well, I
think I'm just going to enjoy being single again. I am going to give up
trying to pursue anyone and just go with the flow of things. I'm tired
of playing the stupid mind game of trying to guess what the other
person thinks about me. I am me. Take it or leave it.

From the depths, I have returned.  Anyone miss me?

Updates.. updates.. let's see....

My last post is from June.  Wow, that's a long time ago.  What's happened since then?

Well, I moved out of that house in October.  I'm living back home with the parents for the time being.  My landlord turned out to be a dooshbag though.  Eddy and I cleaned that place top to bottom, and it LOOKED REALLY GOOD.  But he still refused to give me back my deposit, trying to claim that the carpet needed to be replaced (which was total BS).

I was totally ready to take him to court over it, but my lawyer mentioned something that made me decide to just drop it completely.  She stated that if he was forced to write us a check, he would've ended up having to write it to me, Eddy, Haylee and Liz.  After thinking really hard about it, I'd rather lose the deposit than to speak to either one of those two ever again.

I quit my job, and starting working at a new place as a contracter.  I love this new job, basically being an IT helpdesk type for a company called Magellan.  No more call center work, thank God!

Lindsey and I are still together.  I've been very happy with her.  We've had almost no drama for the past 7 months.  For Christmas, I built her a computer.  Here are the specs:

Athlon 64 2800+

512mb PC3200 DDR Ram

Sapphire Radeon 9600XT

Some MSI motherboard

80GB hard drive (Western Digital)

17" Flat Panel monitor

2.1 speaker system made by Cyber Acoustics

All-in-all, it came to about $800 total for a complete system.  I totally caught her off guard with it.  She kept talking about how she wanted a computer so bad, but couldn't afford one.

More recently, though, she got me back.  She bought me a BFG 7800 GS for Valentine's Day!  She's definately a keeper

With my job, my contract is ending at the end of February, so I'll need to stick my resume out there again and see if I can get another job similiar to this one.  I love working help desk/IT stuff.  And the pay isn't bad either.

I approach the end of yet another week. I sit here and question what is it that I want to accomplish in life. I've been working at my job for a little over 2 years, but don't see myself going anywhere. As Tamara said at one point, "the assembly line" life.

This week has been much easier to get through. I've been seeing Lindsay a lot. She gives me something to look forward to everyday after work. Since I've met her, I felt just so much less depressed.

However, there are a few things that are still riding on my mind. Just day to day stuff that I know I need to get done, but haven't yet. I'm just trying to hold out to my next paycheck so I can get my bills paid (mainly my Cable bill). Eddy was supposed to mow the yard last Monday, but didn't get to it, so I'm thinking I will have to do that this weekend, sometime. I also need to pick up some batteries for my wireless keyboard. The thing is dead, and I can't use my computer till I do (I'm typing this at work).

I just need to get caught back up on things.

As far as my job goes, I'm really just getting tired of working in a call center. Yeah, I get paid to do nothing at times, but I find myself wanting to do more things that interest me. The local computer store down the street is hiring for part time techs. I was thinking about putting in a resume and see where that goes. I wouldn't also mind applying at a company called "Unisys." $13/hr, full benefits, paid holidays off. Right there is already offering more than what I am getting now at Teleperformance, except of course, its still a call center job.

I wouldn't mind going back to school, but it's just a matter if I could afford it, and be able to discipline myself to set aside time for school. I'd really hate myself if I went back, then failed. But I don't trust myself to stay dedicated at this time. It seems that factor is what is really holding me back.

I love computers. I really do. I love working with them, fixing them, building them, upgrading them, playing around on them, everything. I want a job where I can do that. Not talk on the phone all day.